I am 735 days sober from alcohol. I went on a fateful vacation in March 2022 that ended an almost 36-year friendship with a woman that I used to call my “best friend.” But my drinking had gone into overdrive long before then.
In January 2022, I reconnected with an old friend (male) from childhood. We hadn’t seen each other since freshman year of college. My then best girlfriend and I who had kinda lost touch with each other reconnected as well and started right where we left off. We would video on Facebook messenger often and private message back and forth. Enter the childhood friend I thought I had lost for good my freshman year of college. He and I had known each other since age 6. He came looking for me through her (best friend, also his ex-girlfriend from high school). Long story short, I learned things from her about their break-up that later on I would figure out were most likely lies. She couldn’t keep things straight. She and I planned a week long vacation together in March 2022. We were able to see my childhood friend on this trip, none of us had seen each other in years. For me, it was great to see him. For her, the endgame was to destroy his marriage and win him over for herself, go back to the way they were in high school. (Forgot to mention, she is also married) Anyway, I had feelings for him I thought had died years ago. They came back with a vengeance, and, he had feelings for me as well. He and I didn’t act on them, but the feelings were eating me alive. I got completely hammered on beer the third night into our trip, falling down drunk. Ex- best friend took video of me, which male childhood friend showed me the next morning. I was embarrassed and mortified. He told me he was not going to stand by and watch me kill myself (I was in a relationship that was toxic and couldn’t see a way out). He told me he would support me to get help or whatever I needed. That night was the last time I drank. I’ve pretty much ended the relationship with her. I still talk to him when I can. I got out of the toxic relationship in summer 2022, got my own place and space, reconnected with a guy from high school later that summer. It’s been amazing. My new boyfriend is very supportive of my sobriety. And I did it all by myself. Ive had moments where I’ve wanted a beer, but I don’t want to go back to Day 1.