Here is the backstory of my path down the road to alcoholism. I feel sober and clear enough that I think its time that I get it our there with the hope that it may help some towards their own sobriety.
It stared when I was 16 years old, just a couple of buddies hoping for a good time on a friday night after school. We drank off an over the next year years.
Skipping a couple of years ahead to the age of around 19 a wild hair to move to florida after graduation for. That lasted a year and I Moved to NM. Unfortunately she followed. Finally I was able to end that relationship for ever.
during this time I turned 21 and frequented my bar. Never really went the for a good time or to meet someone or anything like that, it was there simply for my drinking pleasure, I met a wonderful woman in an EMT class I was teaching. At this time I had a good job as a firefighter and had great potential to advance, even if it was somewhere else.We started dating, which mostly consisted sitting at her house drinking a 5th and smoking. We both began going out to the bar when not at her home. We also began drinking on our while the was at work. It got progressively to the point law enforcement because involved and I lost my job as a firefighter.
After this there was time frame of maybe 3-4 months sober. I couldnt find a job in my town and finally moved. I resumed drinking but not really the same extent. I continued for around 2 -3 years only drinking moderately. I came home, and almost instantly started up hard again. This was late June. BAM! 2 weeks later Ag-DUI. Had a short stent immediately after that of very heavy drinking, then I discovered AA. I attended AA for about 6 months and had been completely sober the entire time. Continued working only occasionally using. Then I met a woman. I did not know it at the time she was an alcoholic too. Couldn’t drive without a glass of something, wake up, or function all without a glass or bottle with here. I become full fledged blitzed all the time. We seperated, I moved back home, never quit drinking but slowed down. Lately ive been going hard on and off. About 2 months ago I started getting the nausea began vomiting blood. STRAIGHT to the ER. I got meds to help with the withdrawals and bleeding problem and vowed never to do it again. Here I again, past week pounding a case a day, In fact I even called in 1 day just to get more beer, Then I decided nah, I can get away with it while at work. Monday my manager came up to me and said everyone is complaining and I can smell, started asking if I had problems. Sent me home for the night with him the next morning too see if I still have a job asked for a LOE. OBviously I took the LOA. Nothing really in our area to admit yourself or get daily visits, so I got myself enrolled in some weekly groups, waiting on an opening for 1 on 1.
Obviously, this whole life should have been a giant eye opening. I refuse to ever let it touch my lips again. I am in the process of changing my whole life around to make it work.
Currently about an hour away from 2 full days spbert
I hope this was helpfull!