My name is Riley.. I am.. or I was a pothead. It didnt last long, maybe a month or two. Ive noticed myself getting more and more irritable.. either from withdrawals or my mental state.. either way its not good.
Today I had gotten into a small fight with my wife (to be determined if that title stays..), I got angry.. way too angry for how small the problem was.
The next thing I know though.. I was standing in my kitchen, knife in hand, and blood dripping down my arm. I cant explain why I did it, I cant even remember doing it.
Im currently in the Emergency room, waiting to be transfered to a mental hospital.. I guess I’m just asking..
What do I do?
I want to get better, not only for myself, but for my wife and daughter too..
Welcome, Riley. I’m sorry things are so bad right now. I bet you and your wife and your daughter are all pretty scared. It sounds like the right thing to do right now is truly engage with the professionals who are there to help you and to work hard to figure out what got you to the point of drawing a knife in front of your family and then hurting yourself. I’m glad you’re seeking help.
Hello and welcome, Riley. I am glad you are with people who can help you navigate this. This community is a fantastic asset, so I hope you continue to use it.
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I am not qualified to advise you on this question, but if you were a close friend or family member of mine I would tell you to rest, heal, be patient with yourself and the process you are entering, give yourself and the ones you hurt/frightened grace, and surrender entirely to the professionals who are trained to help you navigate such a scary and challenging situation such as this.
I wish you and your family the very, very best and I’m glad no one was hurt more severely. Please continue to check in here for support, but most importantly with your care team.
In my active addiction i had two attempts at suicide and ended up in a locked ward with a jacket that buttoned up the back for me my wife and i had a fall out and im sad to say our marriage ended after 13 years ,thats the bad part the good part i Went to AA when i was living with my parents now that was in 1986 and got married again and have to sons so my journey didnt work out but i started again and im happly married and still sober so i hope you and your family can work it out wish you well , theres help out there ,