Im 82 days AF today. Im not doing good today. Ive had a situation that happened in my personal life that is really affecting me. Im feeling a little lost. Im frustrated right now and I feel stupid for feeling emotion. I feel like i dont have right to feel hurt or heart ache. Im dealing with some issues that bring up child hood trauma along self worth. I feel alone. Having a hard time explaining im just hurting
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You should never feel stupid for feeling your emotions. Can you get to the core of what the issue is? You don’t need to explain or tell me at all, it’s just I wonder if you can objectively look at what’s bothering you. Imagine you were talking to a loved, dear, friend and they had the same issue and confided in you. How would you respond? Would you comfort them and assure them?
Try to envelope this for yourself.
You are never alone 
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You are entitled to feel whatever it is you are feeling. If you would like to share more here this is a supportive environment.
I find that I often feel alone and I realised that the reason for that is that I don’t share, I don’t express what I am feeling or going through, and by doing that I end up isolating myself. Sharing with someone may help you feel less alone.
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In a way it’s good you’re feeling these feelings. You’re feeling. You’re alive. I’m sorry your feelings are rotten but be sure that you have the right to feel whatever you feel. And be absolutely sure that wanting to numb these feeling is a reaction all of us here know and have and in the past have acted upon. But no more Julia. Thanks for sharing how your feeling, that already is the battle half won. You’re not alone. We’re in this together. Big hugs.
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I get this. In my case, sometimes I think I’m not entitled to feel sad or hurt when it’s related to things I did or caused in my addiction. I’m working my way through this.
It is a sucky place to be, emotionally. Conflicted and dark and suffocating 
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I’m so sorry love! sorry that you are dealing with these emotions / feelings. Do know you are not alone! You are loved and cared for and please keep connected here.
You should not feel stupid at all - you are allowed to feel whatever emotion you feel!
Totally understandable for an instance to trigger our past and bring the emotional state to the forefront. Just remember that drinking will not help the situation in any way. Much love Julia!
I see you wrote this 6 hours ago - how are you doing now?
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Even though im having a poopy day I will not drink … have had a few cries today and geat feeling of loss
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Awe love - sorry that your day is so poopy. Sending you massive comforting hugs and hope that your cries are therapeutic and releasing 
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Here for you Button
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I’m sorry you’re going through a hard time right now. We hear you and you’re not alone. Proud of you for not drinking, keep talking it out.
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I am sorry that you are going through this.
One day at a a time
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So sorry.
I know those days can sneak up on any of us. Glad you are resolved to not drink-we all know that wouldn’t help. Here for you!
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Hey Button 
Just thinking of you. I hope you are doing better today.
Dealing with feelings and how we feel about them is so complex. I hope you are feeling better about yourself today, as you begin your 83rd ODAAT
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Im doing better today, yesturday was bad and the day before. I awoke with sobriety… here something I wrote
To some, we are the hero and to some, we are the villain to some, we are the lover and the sum we are the w****, to some, we are an object and to some we are precious. To some we are the child and to others we are a parent.
I am a hero I am a villain. I am a lover and I have been the w**** I have lived through being the abused object. And I currently am precious to some. I am the daughter who is thrown away. I am the parent who has not been there. I have never given birth, and yet I was the mother. I am many things I am human
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Beautifully written and you are precious 
Glad to hear that today is a better day
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Beautifully written
Yes you are precious to many 
Thanks for checking in.
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Thank you so much for your kind words. 
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Dont ever feel stupid for feeling emotions, we are here to support you and if you ever need someone to talk to, call me!
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