Feeling down today. I’m 12 days sober, unemployed, broke and depressed. I moved back home 4 months ago due to being unemployed and financial strain. I tried a job and ended up getting let go. I currently feel like I have no purpose. I’m constantly worrying about what I’ll do for work and if I can handle it. My self confidence is shot. I honestly don’t know what to do. I had to move away from my kids and into my parents (embarrassed). I at least get to see them on Saturday for our Christmas. I miss them so much. Looking forward to an in person meeting tonight. I still feel like I’m out of place up here. I miss my kids, my friends, and town I left. I need advice. My last career was stressful, inside sales/customer service. It The stress lead me to drink. I honestly don’t know what to do. I’m tired of being miserable. Sorry for blabbing, just needed to get this off my chest.
Congratulations on your 12 days Jason. I’m sorry you are struggling so much. I’m glad you came here to post it and get out. Sharing our problems make them just a little bit less. Those first few weeks of sobriety are the worst. None of this has to be permanent. You can build yourself back better. One day at a time.
To look at it from a different perspective it sounds like you got a lot to be grateful for. I like to dwell on what I have to be grateful for. Like my grown up children. I won’t see them for Christmas but I’m very grateful they are well. Gratitude is one of my strongest tools. I practice it all the time now.
It sounds like you got a great plan hitting up a meeting. Keep it up.
ODAAT
Hi Jason,
I recently felt down as well and I just couldn’t knock it away for love nor money. It was crippling. Slowly I am still pulling myself out of it by using the following tools:
Trying to be grateful… Fake it till you make it if necessary.
Movement, walking, swimming, gym. Keep active, your body will feel good and that spreads around a sense of wellbeing.
No hate talk towards yourself, just try being kind to yourself.
It’s hard to say what will work, try little things out and just little steps make bits strides. You can do it. Nothing is embarrassing when you are making the effort to help yourself out for the future.
Congratulations on the 12 days. 
Keep checking with head held high…
Well done on getting to day 12! I can relate to job stress as well, and I guess my drinking got worse once I got my first grown-up job. One glass of wine to relax, and ended up drinking an entire bottle. This made my performance at work worse → more stress → more alcohol. After relapsing, I decided to get an easier job, working with people and less focus on performance.
It’s easy to say this, but don’t try to figure out everything at once. You’re in recovery, and, I don’t know about you, but I feel so vulnerable. I feel a sense of urgency in that I want to fix everything now, but I also know that my job right now is to get through each day. People have already given you great advice; take a walk when your mind is racing. A walk in nature really clears my mind.
We don’t have to make it forever, we just have to make it for today. Future tripping is the number #1 enemy for people like us. Make one small positive change today, just try and be a little better than yesterday. We’re always getting better or worse. The amazing thing is that we get to choose. You can do this my friend 