@Andy Really try to just focus on today. Forget yesterday now, and don’t worry if you will drink tomorrow. Wake up and say “I will not drink today”. The only drink you have to not have is the first one, then there won’t be a 2nd or 9th. Please don’t give up.
This is what I posted on another thread yesterday:
Anyone resetting frequently has to ask themselves…
Have I fully committed yet?
What can I do differently this time?
What support or mental tools can I add in besides the forum? For example…
inpatient treatment
outpatient treatment
Dr. consult maybe with medications
AA and other fellowships
books
worksheets
websites
videos
meditation
daily self-care
Also I would recommend spending some time studying relapse prevention and how to deal with cravings. Some good resources are in these posts:
(Different Aspects of Recovery - #28 by Melrm)
(Different Aspects of Recovery - #36 by Melrm)
I am in no way implying that I am “above” relapsing - far from it! I’m working at it all too.