Man, this hit home hard!!! Thank you, it means more than you know to have the support of this group… im so glad i found this app. Its literally saving my life right now.
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Youre absolutely right. All this change all at once though is alot. Im a person who craves stability and peace. Ive never been in a position with someone i care/love. I have to stay calm and focused. I feel like this is one of those situations i have to handle very carefully because the consequences of my decisions will effect me for the rest of my life. Plus, i want to be able to look back on this 6 months to a year from now and be completely proud of how i handled things and maintaining my sobriety. Honestly im suprised i haven’t relapsed yet but my will to stay sober is so strong especially seeing her actions and how far gone she is. Our DOC was always percocet, never anything else and i was always the one who got them and now she has no way of getting what she actually wants so she doing meth which is what she can get herself. Again, thanks for all the support… this is just another sign to me from the universe that im on the right track!!!
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Now you def need to setup a camera. So you have evidence. But dont use it unless absolutely necessary. You are not going to be able to do anything if the cops lock you up. She is obviously in a bad place. But the same way you got sober for yourself she has to want the same and honesty i know a couple people that jail was the wakeup call they needed to get it together for them and their family. Good luck. But protect yourself bro. Take videos on your phone then upload it to the cloud or email then delete it from the phone so it looks like you did t take any videos.
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I just came home from work and she walked into the kitchen and said something… i said what? She completely lost it again and started saying basically that everything that happened last night, i did…like what 
she said im the one who attacked her, invaded her privacy because i hacked her t.v in her bedroom, said that im the one that broke two of our t.vs and she thinks i have a camera in her room set up. Ive never seen her like this… she already has mental issues now add days of no sleep mixed with meth… ive definitely got to move out tomorrow until i can get with the landlord and have her removed. This breaks my heart though, not going to lie. Im broken right now. She looked me dead in the eyes and whole heartedly said i did them things to her when in fact i was definitely the one abused last night. The only reason i can think of with her saying i did all of that is that she thinks im recording. I only have two cameras and have only set them up in my room and one at a time. Last week i tried to set one up looking out the window to watch my trucks because of the crowd shes hanging with. I have hundreds of dollars worth of tools in both of them. When she found out she lost it and came in my room and took it. The other camera i just set up today inside my room watching the door which was locked incase she kicked my door in and started to destroy my things. I honestly shouldn’t even be here right now but im afraid shes going to destroy the place and im just as responsible as she is on the lease… im afraid to tell the landlord cause he probably will be pissed off shes destroying shit and doing drugs… this sucks…
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I’m so glad that this support is bringing you comfort. You’re being so strong right now. Please keep going, we’re with you every step of the way.
I never imagined the power of a community like this.
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What about her family that came for her last night, can they get involved more? I think the more help you have will be better for all. It sounds like she needs to go to a rehab or some place for her health and safety for both of you.
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Same, its amazing the ones that are truly here for the process. I tried this app a few times and only when i got real about it truly started to help. Just knowing you are not alone is an amazing feeling in its self.
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Billy, I wouldn’t wait until tomorrow. Pack your most valuables and get out of there.
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Her uncle is who i was able to get ahold of and hes all the way in California. I think she need rehab as well…shes in total denial though. I just don’t want to make any decisions thats going to complicate her life any more or mine for that matter. I know how crazy that sounds but i cant just turn off my love for her like that. Yes, its completely over for now and i will have to stick to that until shes gotten help and i know that. I just dont want to make things worse. I guess im just to soft at the end of the day.
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I get it, you’re a good guy for thinking it all through like that. 
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Im just glad im sober right now and can think somewhat clearly. Its weighing on my mental state though and definitely tugging at my heart strings. I wish i could just make her WANT to get help, but we all know how that goes…it wont work until shes ready to let it work
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I am so sorry that you are constantly getting triggered in your own home. That should be your safe place. Congrats on staying sober.
Its hard to say goodbye to a long term relationship but it doesn’t seem like this one is worth holding on to. You deserve better. Keep your head up and best of luck moving forward from this situation.
You mentioned not waiting to tell her family or kids about her behavior. By them knowing - would they be able to help her acknowledge her chaotic lifestyle?
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I know lee, everything in my gut is telling me to do the same thing. My heart on the other hand, ugh.
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Gut trumps heart. Always. Listen to the gut when it’s barking at you.
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This is gold! Hold onto your sobriety no matter what happens. You need to have a clear mind to get thru these tough times. I know it’s hard to believe at this moment but this will not last forever, and you’ll be in a better place soon enough. Sending you strength to do what you need to do. 
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I think the sooner you are free of this relationship, the better off you’ll be. Stay clean and sober…so you can stay free. Then start living your best life
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Do yourself a favor document everything, take pictures of the damage she is causing, if you can video or record her during her acts then make reports
In this situation it’s always he said she said, but if you have proof of her behavior, you can show that she’s lying when she claims the abuse.
Also any police officer worth their salt, will see right through it.
If you kicked her ass, why would you call the police? That’s the start, or you call during her tantrums, in your room in private, police will show up to her carrying on, that’s a lot of evidence right there
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Awe that really sucks dude. I completely feel for you I’m kinda in the same situation. My bf of two years won’t stop doing meth and I can’t be around it anymore that’s why I am moving back into my mom’s with my two year old son I had a DCS case bc me as my ex got pulled over with drugs in the car even though my son was at my mom’s at the time I still had dcs case opened up on me.and truly changed my life forever but I’ve worked so hard and I almost got him back which is amazing feeling I am so excited to have my baby back in my arms with me24/7: but yeah it’s fine it’s time to leave my ex behind he doesn’t ever wanna change and I can’t have that shit around my.baby but anyways what drugs in your ex on and your doing a great job dude do not let her bring you down stay strong you got this here to chat with ya anytime 
message me if ta want to
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The only thing you can do at the moment is go with your head …all the stuff your heart is telling you is actually completely out of your control because unless she decides to get clean your dealing with crazy and not real her, your doing amazing Billy im so proud of you 
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