First time posting - end of today will be day 10 with no alcohol.
Yesterday and today I have really wanted to drink but I will not because I know how disappointed I would be in myself if I did. It’s so easy to drink but it’s time I stop escaping reality and learn how to deal with it in a healthier way. I’ve known for a long time that drinking only makes things worse but I kept doing it cuz the world is a fucked up place to be these days.
My mother is dying… I most likely won’t be seeing her again because I refuse to suffocate myself to do so. Probably better this way anyway… We’ve always had a horrible relationship, she’s a narcissist who doesn’t know me at all. There’s no value in our visits so better to just stay away and use the phone instead.
I value this community a lot. Since joining, this app has helped me not drink more than I ever knew an app could! I really enjoy reading threads and seeing the amount of support on here. Everyone’s words in various threads helped me so much yesterday when I was about to drink - I’m proud of myself for choosing not to.
The picture is all the needs I am meeting by not drinking.
