I usually write in my journal about my thoughts and nonsense, I’m not used to this but here is the thing, ima be real with ya’ll, It’s officially Day 3 & I feel like FUCKING clawing my eyes out. I take pride on being self-aware or whatever but how self-aware can I be if i forget to eat, sleep or do the bare minimum for myself. I’ve been feeling dizzy, nauseous, angry, this crippling feeling, the urge to just release intense emotions & not knowing how without being so self-destructive. I’ve made attempts in the past to be sober or “manage” my drinking & its never worked out for me. I’ve gone to the gym, focusing on activities, I’d be doing great for like a week or 2 at best & I just end up going back. It’s almost like this switch, psychological switch where suddenly nothing matters, I feel no guilt and part of me reminds myself that “I can do whatever the fuck I want & no one can stop me.” I am not afraid of that part of myself, BUT I am concerned. These random acts of impulsivities are replaced with alcohol consumption, the need to fulfil that urge and feel that satisfaction. .but enough is enough. It’s upsetting & I hope somehow, someway being on this app would be an encouragement. I don’t know, I just feel like dogshit today. . . . Thank You for Coming to My TED Talk losers <3 much love. I’m Joey btw.
Im sorry you’re having a hard time. This is a great place for support. Meetings have been a big help too. I attend them online and recently started in person meetings. Intherooms.com is a great resource. There are meetings for all kinds of addictions/issues. Congrats on 3 days!
Yes that urge and satisfaction is a good way to put it and I can relate. With me it’s beer and no matter what sucks three takes everything away and everyone after that is a bonus. I am pretty new here to as well and let me tel you it has helped for sure. If you want direct message me and I can tell you more of my story but again this place is great and a comfort place for me I’m three days in
Thank you so much, I looked into the website & I will forsure be attending online
Thank you for the reassurance
Our stories are very relatable. I’m new here this this app too & im on day 3 & it’s helped me the ENTIRE TIME. we are better today than we were 3 days ago because WE ARE SOBER. Much love to you, ONE DAY AT A TIME. we’ve got this.
Welcome 
Feelings are all over the place at the beginning. Getting the alcohol out of your system is the best start to regulating emotions. Keep at it!