New Here — Done Feeling Like Shit

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What’s up, legends. Name’s Stéph, I’m 1 day in and tracking with Sober Time now, and already tired of waking up every goddamn morning feeling like I got steamrolled by a regret truck.

I don’t drink every night, but when I do? It’s a full-blown binge session — and I’m sick of that shit. I’m done with the broken sleep, low energy, foggy brain, and dragging ass through my day wondering why I keep doing this to myself.

I’m here because I want more — better sleep, more energy, sharper focus, and a fucking life that isn’t held together with hangovers and excuses. This time it’s not just a “maybe I’ll cut back.” This time I want war. I want peace. I want clarity. I want it ALL.

Ready to do this. One badass sober day at a time.

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Hey Cotes.

Those benefits are just the tip of the iceberg. “I want it All” is a bit ambitious. :wink:

I’ve been sober for over 18 months. It’s worth it. It does take work.

Do you have a plan?

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This is a good place to be where you’re surrendering and accepting that alcohol does not work in your life and especially moderation or tiptoeing around the facts. Take things one day at a time and commit to your recovery on a daily basis and everything will fall together. There’s going to be ups and downs or trials and errors but nothing you have to drink over. Welcome to the community this is a really Wonderful place full of lots of different people from all walks of life and addictions. Read around and reach out whether it’s good or bad. Congrats. Also great job On not playing victim. You definitely have the right attitude

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Welcome aboard.

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Hey MN, really appreciate the message — and huge respect on the 18 months. That’s the kind of thing I’m aiming for.

Yeah, “I want it all” might sound ambitious, but I mean it. Better sleep, more energy, a clearer head, and being fully present — not just for myself, but for my family too. I’ve got people counting on me, and I’m tired of showing up at half-capacity.

My plan right now is no booze in the house, daily tracking with the app, swapping out drinks with walks and journaling when things get loud in my head. This group’s gonna be a big part of the process too — support and accountability make all the difference.

Thanks again for checking in. I’m committed to doing the work :flexed_biceps:t2:

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Thanks so much, really appreciate this message. You’re absolutely right — moderation hasn’t worked for me. I’ve danced around the truth long enough, and it’s time to just face it head-on: alcohol doesn’t belong in my life anymore.

I’m ready to take it one day at a time and stay committed, especially now that I’ve found this community. It means a lot to be welcomed like this. Already seeing how supportive and real people are here, and that’s exactly what I need.

Appreciate you pointing out the attitude — I’ve spent too long avoiding accountability, so it feels good to finally be doing something about it.

Thanks again — looking forward to sticking around and staying connected.

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Cotes.

If you don’t mind me asking, what triggered you to quit today? Why is this your quit date?

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Hey, I don’t mind at all — I’ve actually been contemplating quitting for a while now. I’ve known deep down that I needed to, and I’ve wanted to, but I just didn’t have the willpower to follow through.

Last night was one of those “too much again” nights, and I woke up feeling like complete crap — physically, mentally, all of it. Just over it. Tired of telling myself “next time I’ll stop.” There is no next time. That mindset was keeping me stuck.

So today I finally said screw this — I’m done. I’m choosing different from here on out.

It’s my 40th birthday on Monday, and was like, why not now and here we are.

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Proud of you.

Knowing there will be a fight is good, talking about it here is great.

Have any AA spots in your area? Might want to check in.

Connect or just be there is always good.

One day, one moment at a time.

Switching to journaling is good, tough, but good.

It’s a long road, but try and just keep it simple at most times. Looking from the bottom of a mountain can be daunting, but looking at the next step is always doable.

But yeah, no alcohol in the house, no bars. If you order food from a place that serves alcohol. Best to just order for pick up and go.

Let go of things you used to drink and do too, for now, drinking friends may disappear, let them.

But, remember, you have to still find good connections, people that are sober. Some can beat addiction by themselves, but being in the mind to long sucks.

Also, as the time goes on, find something youre interested in. It’ll help. Youll learn something new, and itll help see there is more to this world.

Those are a couple ideas. Take some, or non.

Fight the good fight. Its worth it, to not be chained.

Also, emotions may be everywhere early on.
Sad
Angry
Hopeless.
Aggression
Joy
Happiness
Hopeful.

Every moment will change.

Thats being a human.

No need to drink about it.

Lastly, i’m 4.5 years sober. Went back and am doing the deeper stuff.

Also, when people get that natural feel good, make sure you check you inner, enjoy it, but see what you’re self destruction idea feels like.

Lots of people, including myself, once i felt so good. I would go and ruin it. By drinking.

Something to ponder, because it comes quicker than one thinks.

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Wow — thank you for this. Seriously. There’s a lot in your message that hit me right where it needed to.

Even just starting today, I can already tell the emotions are gonna be a ride. I haven’t felt the full storm yet, but I’ve been carrying all those feelings — anger, regret, hope, anxiety — for a long time. And I’ve definitely had those moments in the past where things start feeling good, and then I sabotage it. That part of your message really stuck with me — something I’ll keep coming back to.

I haven’t looked into AA yet, but I’m open to it. Just trying to keep it simple and take it one day at a time right now. And yeah — no booze in the house, no bars, no “just one” situations. That’s a trap I’ve walked into too many times.

Really appreciate you sharing all this. You didn’t have to, but it means a lot hearing from someone who’s been through it and stuck with it. Hope to stay connected on here.

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Yeah, keeping it simple is good, boring, but good.

Its a peace that chasing a high isn’t worth it.

In
Drinking
Drugs
Gambling
Sex
Even validation.

Those are traps.

Ahhh, and lets add the, i want it all.

Be careful on your thoughts.

Because all could be anything in life that could happen.

There is a humbling factor once you think about it.

However, its day 1.

Those thoughts are something to ponder for later. Going after it all, if it kicks you to get sober and pushes you early on. It works.

I still use anger or some negative feeling sometimes to reach goals, i just know i cant live on it.

God taught me a few things.

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You’re right about “I want it all.” It’s been a driving thought — maybe a fuel source right now — but I get what you’re saying. That chase, whether it’s for a high or for perfection, is a trap in its own way. There’s a difference between wanting more for yourself and trying to outrun reality. That line between the two is thin, and I’ve definitely crossed it more than once.

For now, I’m just trying to stay grounded. One day, one step. If “I want it all” gets me off the starting line, that’s fine — but I’m already seeing that peace and simplicity might actually be the thing I need most.

Thanks again — for real. I’m listening.

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:rofl::rofl:

And, I went so far a few to many times.
Simplicity is good.

There just comes a time when one realizes, maybe, it was about the important things.

But, every person realizes what is and what isn’t, in there own accord.

Anyways, glad you’re here.

So many great people on this app, different stories, ideas and concepts.

Grab a coffee and stick around.

Have a good day / night.

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Welcome! I personally find not drinking at all much easier (now) than the constant bargaining, obsessing, rationalising, that I did when I was drinking. It took time (and a program) to break myself of the habit of drinking and still working on the mental habit of wanting to escape reality when things get hard, but it was and is worth it.

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How are you doing tonight?

@Cotesj85

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@MTSober doing well! Kept busy today with yardwork and just watching some shows with the lady :blush:

Thanks for checking in, I appreciate it! How are you doing today?

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Really good, just got a new job.

Guy likes my work ethic, so im doing construction on houses.

Gym went smooth.

Hanging with a good friend.

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Congrats, sounds great man! Sounds like a good weekend to me!

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Cotes and MTS.

Good to hear you’re both doing well and enjoying the sober things in life.

I started a new job the same week I stopped drinking. It’s always nice to have a fresh start to keep busy.

Hang in here.

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Is tomorrow day 7?

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