Welcome home Mad!
A healthy fear of relapse is a good thing in my opinion. It helps to keep sobriety a priority in my life. I go to AA meetings 3 times a week and I never hear anyone come back from a relapse saying it was worth it or it was different this time. Sure, it may start out well, but in time, they always end up worse off than where they were when they started recovery.
When the thought crosses your mind, just play that tape all the way through to the end which is never pretty.
Stay close to your recovery network while you settle into your new sober life. I check in here multiple times a day, so don’t hesitate to reach out or send a PM if you need extra support.
Yes, nature is still beautiful to me. There’s nothing better than taking a walk in the early morning listening to the birds while the rest of the world is still asleep. It’s the most peaceful place to be. The beach is even better, wish I lived closer.
Good evening @Lisa07. Thanks for sticking with me and for the advice.
I appreciate you mentioning that playing the tape through when I think of relapse will always convince me otherwise. That being said, it can be hard to think it through that much at all, you know? I need to work on impulsivity when I’m feeling big emotions for sure.
Today was hard. I’m trying to stay mindful and present through the day, like i did in treatment. I was excited to get back to the gym. I feel lonely without all of the support i’ve had for a month, and there are triggers everywhere. I’m putting safety nets in place though; I don’t particularly want to leave myself the chance to make an impulsive decision. It was nice to be back at the gym and in my home, which is much cozier than i even remembered on a cloudy, slow Monday.
I hope you had a nice day. Lots of errands on my end tomorrow.
It’s a good one. It’s big. It’s easy to get lost in the crowd if that’s what you’re looking for. No one will bother you. Go listen to a speaker. There are a lot of nice ladies there too that would be happy to help if you like. No one is pushy there.
Thank you so much for following up with me on this. I feel lucky to have run into you on here. Getting lost in a crowd sounds much less scary than the alternative, so I’ll definitely give it a try.
New here and I’m for it all and whatever comes with this
I’m in a PHP treatment center (30 days) and omw to IOP living. I will definitely be wanting support in fact that’s is what I Want out of my sobriety/new life. I hope to get a sponsor but I’m afraid to asks this my first time for sobriety my first time for treatment my first time for it all so I’m keeping a open mind and being optimistic.
Hi @NewLife386- welcome! Congrats on being in treatment. I just got out of residential myself so i definitely know how daunting and important it is. If you’d like to check in here or in the check-in thread regularly, there are some people around to connect with every day. As for sponsors- let me know if and how you go about finding one. Im new too! Good luck!
Hi LittleMissL! Today was a lot. It was my first day really alone this time around. I put a few safeguards in place (left my id and credit cards home, asked a close friend for support) but i still felt like i was white-knuckling it. I didnt drink. Im exhausted honestly.
The fact you put safeguards in place is great. The first months can be mentally exhausting but you’re taking all the right steps, keep taking things 1 day at a time and talking to your support irl and here. You are doing so well!
Not bad hectic just hospital appts and tests, being in the hospital my Dad died in 2 yrs ago really triggers me (the smell of the place) but got home went to sleep for a few hours and kids had done dinner so I could rest.
You’re doing so well juat look after yourself well, stay hydrated, eat well, rest etc thats going to be important as you heal
What a great idea to start this thread for yourself and for others! It is always great to have your supports along for the ride. I like the daily check in thread, but Im glad to pop over ti see how you are doing too Keep going Madds you got this and youre taking all the right steps…xo
That makes sense. I guess if it was easy everyone would be sober, but I’m happy to hear that I’m kinda on the right track. Building support is going to be a big one for me. I’m pretty isolated in life. Im hoping this app and finding some local groups can help with that. As far as taking physical care of myself- this comes a bit more habitually for me. Thank you for the reminder. Sleep is definitely a harder one for me.
I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. I can imagine that the same hospital could be incredibly triggering, even a long time later. I’m happy that you went home and rested and that the kiddos took care of dinner. I hope your health is okay and that youre feeling a bit more comfortable as the day comes to a close.
@Mira_D it was mostly an accident but having people here to show up with has honestly helped me make it through these last few days, so I’m grateful to have this thread for sure. Thank you! Welcome
Grand Arising to fellow members and newcomers I am 3mths and 24 days Sober and feeling grateful to have another day to be grateful. My situation is alien unfamiliar to me especially with being around all these guys and different attitudes,although, I have to work on mine. One day at a time they say though enjoying my new life and not rushing anything because we want it Now (instant gratification) and that is not working. To all thank you and have a good day. Prayers up!
Hi @Madds!
Just dropping in to ask how you’re doing. It’s nice to see you posting in other threads too and making connections. In my AA meetings, they say the opposite of addiction is connection. I need to hear that often because I tend to isolate and my addiction thrives on isolation. Especially now with the bitter cold weather, I just want to cuddle up in a blanket and cut myself off from the outside world, but I know that’s not mentally healthy, so I force myself to go to meetings. Anyway, enough about me. Hope you’re adjusting to your new life.
and for others! It is always great to have your supports along for the ride. I like the daily check in thread, but Im glad to pop over ti see how you are doing too 