@Joshua2 hi there 
welcome
I’m pretty much a newbie at life in general…and attempting to knock it off with this isolating stuff. So anyway, this is a neat forum; there’s a lot of positivity and openness. I hope you will find what you are looking for. 
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I used to do the very same thing, always relapsing back on my toxic relationships. I know how that is. I struggle with staying in contact with what few healthy people I do know… Mostly I just keep to myself, take care of my parents and their home. I’ve always had terrible with f2f social interaction though. 
I know I shouldn’t force myself into solitude like this, but I don’t know how to make friends. Sounds silly, I’m 34. Sigh.
I actually really appreciate you sharing all that with me… I feel so alone sometimes, just cut off from healthy relationships and emotionally invalidated. It’s good to know that I’m not really as alone as I think. <3
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Your candor is also appreciated on this side! I’ve spent a lot of energy separating myself from everyone, but I think that feeling of separateness and of being “other” all stems from my own head. I guess I don’t really believe that anything is separate in this universe…maybe I wish that awareness would magically negate the sense of loneliness I have always felt.
I am struggling to find fault with being 34 and not feeling confident about making friends! Maybe because I am 40 and moved back in with my parents in March, HA. I heard somewhere recently that we can only really compare ourselves to ourselves -I like this because it helps me reframe things so I can start where I am. I’m certainly not where I thought I would be at this age or where I perceive my peers to be, but I know I am a better person than I was. I care about continuing that progress for the rest of my life, and it’s really neat to log in here and meet others who have that shared value. 
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Sorry for late reply but I was addicted to heroin
No problem. Yeah, me too.
It’s rough but the way I look at it is we are strong too tho to be able to get away from a drug that is super addicting.
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I know what you mean. And yeah, I mean people keep telling me that it takes strength to accomplish what we have, so there is probably a lot of truth to that.
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Yes definitely!
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