Hiiiii so I threw together a last minute custom for Halloween and I gotta say I love it beyond so freaking greatful 
Anyways happy Halloween if you celebrate, this is my 2nd Halloween I celebrate clean and sober 
Lol this might be my birthday outfit !!! Definitely something I’m considering !!! Maybe lol 
Quote of the Day
If you’re still finding recovery or in recovery and you get there, you’re kicking ahhhhhhh!
Soooo coollll 
& thank you so much I absolutely love the entire look I’m considering using the wig on my 28th birthday!!!
So the longer I’ve been in recovery the more I have questions about who I am as person I’m very aware of my neurodivergency hopefully I spelled that correctly 
& as of late I’m starting to think I have autism maybe I don’t but I took the first step in getting an official diagnosis and if not I’ll atleast get relief in understanding with how my mind works!
I also started journaling whatever I feel so my mind isn’t so full and roaming all over and it’s pretty helpful as of presently 
1yr3months and continuous healing to be done 
Good on you Laquitta. Recovery is a life long journey of discovery. So much to learn about ourselves, the world around us and those that are in it with us. X
I feel like I’ve gone down the rabbit hole of self discovery 
the second I think I’m sorta done nope something new and this has continually come up for me, as nervous as I am a sense of relief would be nice!
I don’t think we’ll ever be done friend. Living life means change. We change as we progress. While still remaining ourselves. Took me some years to feel comfortable with that after 40 years of staying sort of the same through hiding in my addictions. People change, the world changes. We change. Realizing that is a relief in itself for me. I understand that may be harder when you maybe have autism. I don’t know. Maybe accepting that change is the constant might help?
I’ve heard that so often change is the only constant and honestly for me I slightly understand, yet still it’s taken me maybe 3 months to adjust to living with my partner vs on my own and I’m still adjusting to the change even while under much better circumstances like no worry of eviction
Aside from that it’s like a process for me to adjust and when I’m burnt-out blehhhh:tired_face:
a lot longer I’m sure of it !
Still journaling, started moving my body more often than I have this entire year and I’m journaling that as well to keep myself on track as much as I can!
In other news I ended a relationship because I’ve noticed after leaving one than getting in another relationship I’m not ready for anything other than a friendship and this year took me through so many feelings I just decided and even held an in depth conversation about my personal feelings!
New month and good news just waiting to hear back on a job please send good vibes,prayer, whatever you believe I feel like I’ve just been holding my breath anxiously waiting all year so often that I’m just ready to breathe and begin this journey and also start the new year off with nothing but good energy 🫶🏿 thanks in advance to anyone that reads this far!
