Welcome Lou! 
You’re in a good space here, there’s lots going on and lots to share and learn, from recipes / food love (Foodies Unite #7(trigger warning food) GNOC, GNOC, GNOCCHI ON HEAVEN’S DOOR!) to pets (Post photos of your pets #5) to recovery experiences (which are everywhere here).
You belong. You’re a good person and you deserve the chance to learn and grow, same as everyone. When you put in the effort you will see the results! You can do it.