Hi, everybody. Well, to spin it quick. 4 years ago, I started drinking heavily as a coping mechanism for an abusive relationship. It progressed to a 5th a night, at the end, I was going through a handle every day and a half. Before work and on lunch. I had to be picked up off the garage floor and helped into a vehicle to move out. Lost my home, family, job, confidence, dignity, and health. I developed a disabling physical condition. Family home detox(had to be hospitalized in the ICU due to the hallucinations) Dr said the next step was death…and I didn’t care. I’m living with family out of a few bags. The depression and anxiety are like no other struggle I’ve had to deal with. It keeps me from socializing with anyone. That and the physical condition, I can’t focus long enough to fill out an application. But, with the support of my family and best friend, I have been seeing a counselor and today marks 100 DAYS SOBER!!!
Still sober…101 days. I couldn’t get out of bed today, but couldn’t fall asleep. Polyneuropathy(nerves in hands, arms, legs, and feet are dead or not responsive) keeps me awake when I AM tired. Im finding it hard to trust people and I constantly think everyone is plotting against me. I’m tortured by thoughts of my ex and her 8 year old son that I raised as my own since he was 2 1/2. I dont know if I’ll ever be able to see him again. It just hurts in so many ways.
Congratulations 
. Keep going strong 
