Hey there.my name is joshua.i am just over 1 year clean.my past few weeks have been the hardest of my year so far.i lost a few friebds,and the most recent last week was my friend whp was more of a brother.im struggling with bot losing just him,but all the stories and convos only me n him could share
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Im sorry, I can feel your hurt. Maybe those friendships will rekindle once they get clean? I hope they do, hang in there friend 
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Hey Joshua welcome to TS. There are many wonderful people here. Read around, interact of you’re comfortable and I’m sure you’ll forge some friendships here as well. Best wishes and congrats on over a year of clean time!
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That’s tough man, my condolences. I hope you are able to make it through this life challlenge and come out stronger because of.
Regardless, I wish you well and hope some friends are close that you can reach out too and share in the sobriety and camaraderie.
Best wishes man
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Thank you all.my most recent funeral was rough.i uber’d to funeral alone,in the town i grew up in and used in,to a funeral home ive been to far too many times…but,it was cool all my old acquaintances seeing me fully sober.my mom showed up and went to the casket w me to say see you later to him.then we left…thank all of you very very much tho.im definitely struggling with it.but,thats ok,im allowed to
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I’m sorry that your friends are dying and I’m glad that you have your time sober that you do. Huge and important accomplishment for you.
Welcome to this community. Many here have had similar experience of losing friends and family and dealing with the harsh and sad reality of that while also continuing to maintain and be proud of their own sobriety.
Lots here at this community to help you on your journey.
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Hi Joshua and welcome here,
I’m sorry to hear you are feeling a bit lonely by losing friends. I found this place very helpfull in discovering new people in my life who live likewise (sober 
).
I even met some of them in real life.
So stick around and involve in some treads you like. It can be a win/win this place: staying clean ànd finding friends!
See you around! 
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Welcome to the forum. I understand the pain of needing to let go of people who I was once very close with. This is a good community with a lot of very quality people. I recommend getting active in threads that interest you. Just jump right in. Also congrats on being clean for over a year.
Joshua, stay the course. You have come too far…a year is amazing. I am terribly sorry for the loss you have experienced. It is unfortunate but this is the reality for many right now. Grief and loss is tremendous because we love these people. They are our friends & family. They are us! I am a professional in the addiction field and i was losing so many clients and not dealing with my own grief that i relapsed on alcohol after 12 years clean. We are here for you and will support you but i would strongly recommend that you get some grief counseling if that is possible for you. Stay on the forum there are some great sober people here. They have helped me tremendously.