Newly 5 days sober

5 days sober here. I told my hubby I would go to rehab (he’s 9 months sober now) so he dropped me off. When I got there they gave me what felt like a prison suit until they searched and washed everything. I didn’t get my clothes back for 3 days. When I was dropped off, I was told that I would be given Valium taper to help me with the withdrawal symptoms. I asked them before I went to bed the first night if I could have the Valium, I was told that I could not have the Valium until I was seen by the doctor and the doctor wouldn’t be in until the next day. I finally saw the doctor and she said I would have my meds in 15 minutes. I went back to the nurses station and I was told that it still wasn’t there. It wasn’t until day three that I finally got the Valium to calm down and help with the withdrawal symptoms. So for the first two days, I laid in my bed in the dark and just cried myself to sleep all day and night. The rooms were like prison cells with no windows, nothing but two beds a dresser, a bathroom and the closet. There were fights breaking out during every meeting to the point where people were getting ready to throw fists. Towards the end of day three I thought I was having appendicitis attack so they transported me to the hospital where I remained until today when I was discharged. I called the rehab facility and told them I was not coming back and they kept pushing me to come back and kept calling the hospital And asking what was wrong with me and why I was still in the hospital. It ended up getting to the point where the nurses told them to stop calling my husband went to pick up my belongings and there are multiple things missing when I called the rehab facility to tell them what I was missing, they went to look in my room and my bathroom, and of course my items were gone. I must say the first five days have been very hard, but I am so glad that I went to the hospital that day because the hospital actually had some compassion and helped me through the rest of my detox Safely. I really want to quit this time and I’m feel like I’m very serious about it. My husband’s my biggest support and is even willing to go to meetings with me. But I must say that I still have really bad anxiety, just knowing that I don’t have alcohol in my crutch anymore. Does anybody have any advice on how to “make this easier” Even though it’s not going to be easy.

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That sounds really traumatic :pensive: I’m sorry you had such a bad experience. I hope you’re coming through it now. You can do this!

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Thank you! I know I’ve got this :crossed_fingers:. I’ve been feeling okay other than some anxiety and a slight tremor. I have a great support system at home and it should be “easier” because my hubby is 9 months sober.

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Engage in this community. When I got sober I thought how the fuck am I going to manage anything, I need alk to even get outta bed?! But I knew there were ppl out there who did it, who had relearned life and then some, and that gave me courage to take the leap every day.
Stay active, connect with others and keep your eyes and ears open. Read read read.

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Good luck and welcome!

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You know what you want, and you’re going for it. Good for you!

I don’t think there’s a way to make it easier, but for me personally I’ve found it is simpler when I have some recovery folks I can chat with. I have phone numbers of people from my recovery group and a few of them I’ve gotten really close with. I find that helps. There’s a list of groups here: Resources for our recovery

Welcome to Talking Sober!

Not sure about how to make it easier as there’s nothing easy about it, sounds like at 5 days you’ve made it through the worst of the withdrawals.
I remember the first two weeks being a bit of a blur and a lot of sweaty dreams but just had to put one foot in front of the other.
My only suggestion is to remember that it’s great that your husband has already started his journey and is supporting you but he is not responsible for your sobriety and visa versa.
Get to a meeting with him if it helps with nerves etc but find a few of your own and make separate connections.
Here’s to day 6 :+1:

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@Jblase0305 I have no advice but just my support and my admiration for you because you are in the correct path now