Well I fell back in my old weekly binge habit this year after a rocky relationship. Nothing has worked… Books, AA, moderation, only beer, etc.
Finally got into therapy with a man who has been sober 15 years. He’s expensive but my previous therapists just didn’t understand. He doesn’t let me make excuses or blame my trauma or mental illness and insists that I’ve got to quit drinking to build a life, and that I can’t just build a life and assume the drinking stops then.
This is the first weekend in many weeks I’ll be sober. He said “do you even want to change” which hit me. It’s my responsibility and not one I ever wanted. It feels good to have someone keep me on task.
So I’ve been getting sober for about a decade and have about six days currently… What a ride.
It sounds like you’re feeling good about this new space. Keep up the work and you’ll get there!