I feel for you.
I’m 7mths sober and 5yrs clean. I still get them.
I had something similar last night but about my ex-husband. We separated a few years ago and divorced about 8mths.
I woke myself up telling him to leave me alone, stop hurting me, I don’t trust you.
I got myself out of bed to freshen up, only to find that I’m covered in bruises and my therapy dog frantic from my nightmares.
I watched the security tapes, and it was all me from fighting myself.
It’s been 3-4mths since we even set eyes on each other, then ended up with a rather concerning call from our previous clinician.
Turns out that he’s tested positive for STI/STD, due to his infidelity (which broke our marriage), and now I just don’t know how to handle the consequences of his actions.
I think that the nightmares are the universe working things out and trying to prepare you for the reality of our past decisions.
Obviously we all have our demons and we need to process the past, but some nights it would be nice to just have a break to refresh.