I have had some of my most traumatic dreams in recovery. I thought they were bad, prior to recovery but I was so completely wrong. I’m still trying to process my dreams from last night, but I’m getting scared again. It’s to the point my therapy dogs won’t sleep with me because it’s becoming outwardly aggressive in my sleep.
I’m now pushing 40hrs of sleep deprivation and tears that are uncontrollable. I can’t even see my phone straight clearly to type.
I think I’m going to have to start with a list of my triggers and explain the invasive dreams by subject matter for any of it to make sense.
Just thought I’d try and open up a space for others to vent about the invasive dreams they might be experiencing.
I’m not sure I’ve ever had a dream that wasn’t a nightmare. Usually I just don’t dream
Do you dream often? Are they always or most of the time nightmares? When you do have a nightmare, are you able to go back to sleep? If so, does the nightmare continue or do you have a different dream? Sorry for so many questions i don’t hear about dreams often
Every night, at least 3x, some are continuing, other nights they are randomly generated.
Sometimes I can go back to sleep if it’s fabricated from nothingness, if there’s truth to it I will lay awake for hours.
I have a less than law abiding past, plagued with an assortment of addiction, sourced by less than admiral means.
There’s lots that roll around this peanut gallery that a haunted house would look like Disneyland
Im going on nine months sober. The worst thing for me is dreaming about getting high. That has passed now. Hopefully your dreams will subside the longer your sober
I relapsed for 4mths, but was sober 9mths prior.
My trauma is very 35yr in the making, and they say it takes twice as long to heal…
I’ll be dead before it happens lol
Please don’t delete this.
This post is supposed to encourage you to talk about the past trauma and what is still haunting you.
Addiction doesn’t come from nowhere.
I found it difficult to find a thread that looks deeper into the root of where it stemmed from.
I’m confident in the admin here, and I’m sure that they are monitoring TW posts.
It’s all well and good to be sober, getting sober and supporting those along their journey. However, finding support to cope with the deep seeded stuff, and side effects of coming back to reality is hard.
I feel for you.
I woke with a panic and 176 heart rate.
Think of the dream, but replace people with week old puppies and kittens. It was terrible.
On the other hand, it must’ve been telling me something subconsciously cos I’ve now been gifted the opportunity to save and rehabilitate a baby bird for release, should it like to be free.
I think it’s the universe working in mysterious ways
I had my first relapse nightmare the other night. I think I was worried about new years and giving in to peer pressure. I felt such regret while sleeping, that I woke up with a sick stomach. I hope your mind starts giving you a break and lets you sleep. Im sorry youre going through this. Stay strong and keep talking in the community. It really helps to vent.
Hopefully you can do something positive to help shake those demons and get some more sound sleep for yourself.
Relapse dreams suck balls. I feel for you
I used to have pretty vivid regular dreams before I started drinking heavily and after all these years those have come back. I do think I might have drank alcohol in a few dreams in the last year, but it was like a minor detail I remembered later.
I did also sometimes wake up with dizzy spells while drinking and those ended a long time ago thankfully.
Not to offend, however I do understand your journey ill even though you think they’re in the past you are still trying to work through them you’ll always work through them as long as it takes to find your better path.
And unfortunately, you can be a quick whip someone who doesn’t understand you . your most beloved child that you don’t want to lose at the end of the day, where you just want to fill silence lunch to earn and hope?
I’m the same, but biting of my tongue has been my biggest sobriety reconciliace.
Clean and sober night #3. The dreams and nightmares are back. Just woke up screaming ‘mommy’ like a child (even though my mom and me never had that kind of bond and we’re not in touch a lot right now, she doesn’t live here and doesn’t know I’m getting sober).
In the nightmare my partner was there, twice. One of him was talking gibberish, holding me tight, trying to take me away from everything, trying to convince me it was okay somehow in gibberish. The other him was further away and snoring, so that must have been the real him, who was actually sleeping and snoring next to me in bed. My nightmares/dreams and reality mix up a lot, and when I wake, I don’t even know what’s real or not, or if I’m truely awake or in another one of my inception nightmares. Its so scary…
Last night I dreamt about being whatched from the building across my bedroom window. And about people that kept knocking on my door and then dissapeared. And about hiding in the dark. But it was all in my actual appartment and my actual bedroom, so it’s so difficult to tell yourself if it was real or not. It feels real. I can only find out by asking my partner.
So about half an hour ago, after waking up screaming for mommy, I woke up my partner and cuddled and cried. One of my cats came to comfort me, like he always does. And now I’m so tired, but too scared to go back to sleep.
Tried to see if I could make a doctors appointment online, but the first free spot is next monday. I hope if I call them tomorrow they can offer me an earlier spot. I hope meds might help… because this is the worst.
Gonna try some meditation or music and sleep with the lights on for now. Maybe some hot milk with honey. Any other tips?
i don’t hear about dreams often
