So I got this today
I feel good and bad. But mostly good.
I feel good because I accomplished my No More Added Sugar goal my way.
I feel bad because I was not 
sugar free. I guess that’s that clean and sober attitude no gray area mind I have.
I feel good because I accomplished my goal of not eating any desserts unless it was a sugar free Russel Stovers chocolate or something with no refined sugar. Or the chocolate oatmeal no refined sugar cookies I sometimes get at my favorite coffee shop.
I feel good because I haven’t had any ice cream or gelato for a year.
I feel good because I haven’t had any desserts for the dessert holidays in November and December.
I feel good because I haven’t had any pieces of birthday cakes or pies for a year. And no donuts or candies or pastries etc……
I even feel good that every once and great while I will put some of that organic sugar in the raw in my cappuccino.
And I still feel good about once and awhile having some wheat berry pancakes or French toast with real maple syrup once and awhile.
I feel good because I accomplished my year of No Extra Added Sugar my way.
I still want a piece of carrot cake 
And I might get that someday soon. But not tonight. I feel that could open up some flood gates for me saying fuck it. I can have some desserts if I like. And it kind of scares me. I do like the numbers game. I like my 1 year streak. And I feel good for doing it.