So, I’m 36 days opiate free. (Suboxone, most recently)
Some days I feel fine. Tonight sucks. My RLS has been back for about 3 days now. It never left, entirely, but it lessened for awhile. I was taking melatonin or other sleep aids, and I haven’t done that for a few days. Tonight my body is sore, no energy, very prevalent mood swings, self conscious, uncomfortable, shakey, weak, insomnia, rapid and heavy heartbeat… excuse me while I whine. Granted, some of these things have never left yet, but tonight they just seem too much. This app is my n/a, essentially. I still find myself doing ridiculous amounts of research on recovery, but the fact is that it affects everyone differently, so there’s not much room for comparison or validation. I just want all the wds to fuck off, to put it bluntly. I even thought about ordering that calm support, but is there even any point at this point? (I haven’t researched that one much.) As always, any stories and/or advice is always much appreciated.