Not what I expected. Expectations never are

Thanks @Yoda-Stevie, it’s thanks to you that I learned and apply this sentiment! (And I now share it with everyone and anyone who’ll listen, lol!) This formula, as you say, is what has helped me to be alcohol free for 770 days now! :pray: I am VERY grateful for you. It was your wisdom and advice, when I first joined TS, that significantly helped me through. In the beginning, I would go out with friends or be around other people drinking, and I would tell myself or others who’d offer NO; I would say NO to the first drink, and there wasn’t ever a second or a third or so on to then worry about. It was a revelation and an amazing feat, to say NO and to choose courage and self-respect instead :blush: I now easily say No because I’m a non-drinker. I won’t drink because I don’t drink. So, thanks again friend for all of your wise words, they help! Getting better every day :raised_hands::relaxed:

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No thanks needed. Seeing you apply this philosophy and advocate it to others is very rewarding in itself.

Keep getting after it!

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Sadly, I wrote this post (the initial one) back in June, 2020 - over two and a half years ago - and I still feel exactly the same today :pensive::mending_heart:

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I don’t really know what to write. I was reading your original post and after this your almost a years sober past from November last year and there was a huge difference. Gratitude.
I sometimes have to cling on gratitude to open up my eyes for what I have, letting go of comparing myself to others lives and outsides, questioning my own expectations. Big hugs, you have come a long way. Don’t underestimate this.

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That in between place can be a hard place to be. Making healthy changes and yet - not feeling worthy - guilty for not appreciating all we do have, guilty for having human feelings, up and downs - wondering why we do not feel better - and on and on. You are not alone in not knowing or being unsatisfied with life as it is or x y z. The transitional times, which can stretch to years I have always found confusing. No great advice to give other than I feel you and the little thing that helps me…being present with the small miracles of today. Some fleeting sun, a warm shower, nourishing food, purring kitty, good book.

Sending hugs. :heart:

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Thanks @SassyRocks and @anon74766472 :heart: Feeling much better today. I was having a hard day - they come and go. The challenge for me is to not get completely sucked into them. On the low days, I feel completely consumed by the clouds and forget that sunshine even exists. Thankfully, it passes - even if I forget that it will -the sunshine always returns. I’m grateful for the ‘good’ days.:slight_smile:

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Glad you are having a good day!

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This made me happy to read!

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Oh,I can completely relate to this. And both states that can come and go within minutes are equally real for me. My problem is that I struggle accepting that the bad moods will go like the good ones as well. I found out that much of my mood swings at least the harsh ones are often related to my cycle. It still took me months and months to accept this and showing understanding for myself and not telling myself that it’s just an excuse and I don’t want to work on myself.

It’s good to read that you ar feeling better today :upside_down_face:

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