Alright okay so let me explain.. my bf moved away almost 2 months ago… first time ive gone with out sex twice a day.. it didnt exactly bother me sexually when he first left but lately… i started watching porn and its not something i often did… ivr been watching porn like 3x a day throughout a regular week… and on weekends ny days off mabey 10x in a day. Im starting to feel like im chasing a high again… as weird as that sounds. I think about watching it often..even at work my mind will wonder… into thinking about what type of porn i shud watch. Im feelin like a weirdo these days. Another thing.. i have been hitting the gym like its my new religion. Ive been lifting weights 6 days a week.. a day off here and there.. doing 15 min of intervals.. just plugging away at ny body. I started dieting.. a high protien based diet. I used to workoit before ny drug use and even worked out on and off during it.. but now thst im back working out again i am addicted to the “pump” i get… its another thibg i crave is the way i feel after i workout. Its like another High. And last but not least. Myy appearance. …jist it ties in with my gym addiction.. i cant relax or feel like 100% if i didnt workout for at least 75min a day.. lol i dont know how to find a healthy balance woth all these things. Im lonely since ny bf noved away.. i got no friends.. a good job but comon now.. its a job. Im so boted thst im focusing on evry little thing about myself. I just wosh i could relax and love nyself the eay i am instead of knit.picking st what i dont like.
Im a very restless person like you.
Firstly let me address the porn.Its a very unhealthy habit and many people on here are struggling with it. I personally think its very addictive and bad for your mind.
Put a tracker for that on this app for sure.
The working out part, I think 60 mins a day is good, nothing wrong with that, infact maybe incorporate 1 rest day a week.
I think you should try meditiation, even if its on your rest day or any of the other days.Many pelple actually run and do yoga in the same day, try that?
could help bring some balance.
On top of working out frequently I do alot of crafts .You probably need to pick up a hobby where ypu can create.knit, embriodery, sew, paint, or just make things.
Hope this helps.Also reading.
I know what its like to be alone my husband was working the oil fields when we lived in another state, I knew nobody. Its tough but its good for you to learn more about yourself and better yourself.
I actuallt reallt appreciate you taking the time to read ny post and write me back. It actually means alot and you have made very good suggestions😊
I think i migt start reading again.. get into the habit.
Is your husband still working in tbe oilfield?
No it was 2 and a half years ago he did it for over a year and I spent alot of time alone.I lost alot of weight and was in good shape, read tons of books, do you have a book list?You should make one and then check it off.I totally understand how you feel, I always have to be doing something. I like to make daily or weekly lists of things I want to do that way I dont get bored.
Here’s the thing… Porn and masturbating aren’t drugs or booze. Working out is good for you, and if your body gets high off it, GOOD! I’m gonna assume that you’re a girl (if I’m wrong, sorry) but masturbating frequently is JUST FINE. Guys do it FREQUENTLY. I really wouldn’t think too much of it.
Ok… so, I’m not trying to be crass but I do it at LEAST 2X a day, and yes I watch porn while I do it and yes, I think about what porn I’m gonna watch when I get off work while I’m at work. So, I really think you’re ok. A healthy sexual appetite is a good thing.
Well you made me feel better lol
Thank you.
I appreciate it.. i never used to watch it much. I dont even oay attention to the people involved just what the fuck their doing. Lol i was feeling pretty weird for watching it alot but what can i do.. lol not a whole lot. It brings me some excitemenr ro my boring sober life 
Thabks for responding😊
I just want to remind you guys there are people on here struggling with porn addiction so please keep them in mind when you post stuff like this.
Too much of a good thing is how we all got here.
With respect… I think that there are far worse things that you could do with your time. Playing downstairs DJ while watching people hump doesn’t harm anyone. Hell, they’ve even studied gorillas watching gorilla porn and found it to be quite normal. Soooooo… Yeah.
Whats normal for you is a problem for other people.Same goes for drinking. Please be respectful of other peoples struggles.
@Brett_M_Wilcox Please take a few minutes and educate yourself on the harmful affects of pornography addiction. You must be respectful to everybody’s addiction no matter how harmless it may seem to you. I will get you started.
http://www.projectknow.com/research/porn-addiction/
" As tolerance develops, individuals with porn addiction may also begin to need more deviant material to achieve the same high. This is again similar to the increased quantity and variety need experienced by many drug users and it’s where rape fantasies, fetishes, and child pornography often come into play. Exposure to such material can grossly distort beliefs about human sexuality and ruin interpersonal relationships. Patients that progress in this fashion often report feeling unsatisfied with their sexual experiences and unsatisfied with their partners" - Cline, V.B. (2002) Pornography’s Effects on Adults and Children
Word. I was actually thinking about this the other day. I have more funds now and so much freedom with my job. It just got way too easy. I think as addicts we are definitely all amazing opportunists.
If ur new lifestyle is not affecting your life then u should be ok, porn addiction is a serious thing for some people though.
I think you need more stuff to do at weekends. Masturbation and exercise are great mostly, definitely way better than drugs, but if they’re becoming an obsession, you need to take a step back. It also sounds like youre feeling lost, looking for all this stuff to take you from your feelings or yourself. Could you volunteer? Take up another hobby? Write, draw, be creative somehow? Start yoga and meditation to feel more at peace with yourself? Try more mindful kinds of exercise, like hiking rather than always the gym?
I think it helps to remember recovery is more than not using or drinking. It’s about trying to live your best life, trying to heal.
Difficult subject, this one, I’m in the same boat as @Suri and @Brett_M_Wilcox to an extent. Working in the back of beyond, hardly seeing friends or family, the main way of having a social life (drinking) not available, I get the ‘workout’ with the very physical job I do, I love reading and learning about virtually anything so my mind’s stimulated, but we are social creatures and have sex drives. So unless I want to go on Tinder and travel 20 miles for casual sex and the chance of an STI, masturbation seems a pretty logical alternative.
But, just like cigarettes, coke and alcohol, when does ‘a little of what you fancy do you no harm’ turn into another almighty fuck up?
Wish I knew the answer!
I think the answer is when it starts to consume you, or when you feel deep down it is a problem.Which is what I took from her original post.