I made it to one week sober, and I am so proud!
Trigger warning as I will talk in a little detail about temptations so far
So this week has been challenging.
The first day I was so depressed. There had been a few incidents that week leading up to my decision to quit, that were really tormenting me.
That first night was horrible! I had not been ready for the sleeplessness, but the hallucinations sucked!!
I kept hearing voices in the room, and would see shadows in my peripheral.
I was terrified!
It took about 4 days for me to be able to get to sleep spomwe , and stay awake longer.
The last few days has seen me using the bathroom more, and I am so much less bloated now!!
Today was my biggest temptation by far!! 13 hours of flying, where free alcohol is offered SUCKED.
I was soooo close to caving, if not just to knock me out so I could sleep.
I was lucky that the gods were smiling on me, because I had a whole row to myself. The only person in my section!!! So I saw that as a sign on self care fro! The universe, so I drank tea, OJ, water, and one diet coke. I got to lay down and watch movies, and had a massive sleep when I got home.
You guys pulled me through!
I kept thinking how much I would hate having to come and tell you that I had relapsed, and I knew how I would feel after, so I just kept putting it off and then the anxiety wained.
SO happy to be here, and happy to be sober right now