Sending you hugs friend 
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Thanks I appreciate it. I found a na meeting on zoom to help feel better
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Oh i love this! Glad that you were able to find some helpful connection 
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I am here with you. Good to share your emotions here. 
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Relaxedā¦ā¦
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I feel very blessed.
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Welcome to the community
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Exhausted and worthless
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Sorry you feel that way. Not worthless! I follow you here as we are close in days sober. 86 for me today. Exhaustion seems to be common here. You are not alone.
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Big Marie ā¦ Iām sorry you are feeling this wayā¦lack of sleep can really fuck up the brain and leave room for negative depressive thoughts. You are amazing and strongā¦ sending love and support and positivity your way 
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Thank you @tailee17 and @JazzyS youāre saving me right now.
This has been hard for a while and I feel like Iām at my witās end. Torture. I have to abandon any plans for today, again. Just trying to get through the day without judging myself for doing nothing. Somehow. Maybe if I remember Iāve had some good days where I went out and got things accomplished, got things done here as well and researched new job opportunities. I so want to move on from sickness and work again. Make progress, thrive. So this hurts. Itās demoralizing. This isnāt me at all. Need to be hopeful somehow. Feels so impossible when youāre in the middle of it. But I need to try.
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I can totally relate to what you are saying. I try to meditate, listen to comics and watch comedy shows to induce laughter to get out of this negative mindset. It is ok to do ānothingāā¦ Remember you arenāt doing nothingā¦you are resting and healing and that takes a lot of energy and effort. Be kind to yourselfā¦here if you need to chat
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I just came here to write something similar.
Wanting to finish some projects and tasks but just donāt know how to begin. So decided if I donāt have the oomph and spring in my step to begin them today why am I mentally torturing myself for not being able to do something my mind wants to.
I have to go back to me earlier recovery days over 2 years ago and remind myself in the early days I have to be kind to myself. Look at what I have done and see the goodness in that. In those days my only task was to get out of bed things were that bad.
Trying to enjoy the day when your mind is racing of what you want/and feel like you should be doing is hard. When you feel nothing has been done.
Itās okay to have these days, itās all part of healing - ( also can be depression - for me itās a bit of that and other stuff)
Itās ok to give your self a break and not feel bad about it.
Itās not easy but try to relax and enjoy the moment in the here and now and not worry about anything - thatās what Iām trying to do.
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Thank you Bill, I love it.
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Thank you.
Iāll let go of the need to be someone else. My health is bad so I wonāt look at how productive and fit others seem to be. We just have a narcissistic culture. Iāll find the beauty in the day.
Thank you for understanding have a great day Twiz
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Have you had something to eat ?
I have to remind myself of H.A.L.T daily.
I donāt eat as often as I should, can go all day until dinner time with nothing. I have started to make sure I eat breakfast and it does help.
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Yes, I had a bit of lunch just now and itās calming my nerves. 
. Am isolated too so the chat is great. Maybe this would all go better without all the unreachable goals. 
. Maybe one load of laundry and run the robot vacuum so I hear cleaning soundsā¦haha
Thank you my friend. Next Iām going to soak. Just quit fighting. A movie. A book. I hope you are doing ok today.
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Prepared ā¦
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Hopefulā¦ā¦.
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Lonely
Today was an important day for me, and my family didnāt remember or acknowledge it. I just feel sad and lonely.
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