Today last year was like any other day for me. I went to work and after we had a company party. Drinks were served party ended but I wasn’t done. I went to the bar with a few friends. Closed down the place. Felt perfectly fine to drive. Or so I thought. Next thing I know I’m in an ambulance. To this day I still barely remember that night. I do know it was the night that changed my life.
I got charged with a DWI with a BAC >=.15 my car was totaled and I would spend the next 10 months out on bond. I was put on an at home breathalyzer that I had to blow into 3 times a day. Once between 5am and 8am, then 5pm and 8pm, and finally 10pm and midnight. If I didnt blow zero or blow at all it was a violation and I could be sent back to jail. As an alcoholic I found ways around it so I could drink. I calculated how much beer I could have and still get sober in time to blow again. Or I would flat out ask people to blow for me so I could drink more. Then I slipped up and blew in my box while still drunk. Back to jail I went with my bond doubled. Out on bond yet again. Finally went to court and had to sit out a few days in jail. While there I thought a lot and knew getting sober was my only option. Next time I might not be lucky enough to just go to jail again.
It has been such a rocky road in recovery. I have relapsed more times then I want to admit. But I can proudly say I’m 24 days sober. Its a lot harder then I thought it would be but I think that’s a good thing. Cause if it was easy to stop then I wouldn’t have a problem right? Ha anyways sorry for the long post but just wanted to share.
I hope everyone has a great day and rest of the week.
50 days sober seems like a very achievable goal for you now, good luck