A year ago I had what i hoped was my last two beers at 4 a.m. while driving into work. I was overweight but malnourished, with high blood pressure and was pre diabetic. I kept my distance from my wife because i was drinking all my beers behind her back, i slept on the couch most nights or put a bunch of ben gay on before bed too hide the smell. I drank at least 16 beers a day, drank and drove all the time, drank beers at work. I would even wake up in the middle of the night to drink a beer or two when the withdrawls started. I was drinking too not be sick, it had been years since i drank to have fun. I wanted to die, i even had a crazy ass suicide plan some on here have probably read it. Alcoholisim was going to cost me everything, I had to stop.
My ability to finally stop started with building a foundation from quit drinking books and this app. Allen Carrs “Easy way to control alcohol” and Nancy Grace’s “This naked mind” shifted how i thought about alcohol and gave me insight to the changes that were happening with my mind and body. I read a lot on here and actually started participating. I couldn’t attend AA because of time constraints (I commute 4 hours a day for work and work swing shift) so i started listening to sobriety podcasts and i cannot stress how much they changed the game for me. I have to plug the Shair podcast, it’s hands down my favorite.
My days started to add up and it was really hard to keep going at times. There will always be an excuse to drink BUT there are always many reasons not to. There is a big difference between an excuse and a reason. Over time things improved, the days got easier and the results were far more noticable. My blood pressure dropped, my pre diabetes went away, I lost some weight, I started having a good relationship with my wife again, and I was excited to be alive again.
So now I’m on to year two which will be very challenging at times I’m sure but I’m optimistic. I know have a chest of weapons to combat my addiction and as long as I stay connected with my recovery, remain humble and honest i have confidence i can stay sober today. It will always be one day at a time and I’m perfectly fine with that because i can only live in the current moment.
Thank you all for being you.
I remember months ago you reached out to me about camping for the first time with no booze… it really stuck with me and I would think of that every time I went. We can still have a good time without booze and life is so much better without it. Keep killing it! 
Your an inspiration to us all. 
. You are an inspiration