I joined this community last Tuesday and was only able to make it one day and I have been dancing with my addiction ever since. Today is day one and I am trying to focus on the fact that i have yet to give up, but boy oh boy does a relapse brings a level of self-hate that can be unbearable or what.
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I admire your ability to get a day by yourself.
My sure fire way to get clean back when I was active in my drug use was to check in to a 5 or 7 day detox facility.
Those are usually free. Maybe you could get a week under your belt by doing that. I used to go to the hospital and tell them I need help getting clean and they have resources to offer you as well.
Back then, getting arrested worked every time too.
Hope my suggestions are helpful
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Yes, continue to NOT give up and be very proud of that. It means you really want it because as you know it really is hard. I will have 30 days tomorrow which is great, but I would have more than 2 months already if not for a relapse. This is the most sober time ive ever had despite knowing I need to quit for several years.
Ill share a few things that have helped, I did not need inpatient treatment but many people succeed better with it, so like our friend said above if thats an option for you it cant hurt đź©·
Focus on WHY you want to quit, what happens when you use, how bad you feel after a relapse, and what you want out of sobriety, in a positive way (more money, better health, better relationships, release from the endless suffering of active addiction, etc). Make a plan for the next few days while you get through the physical withdrawals so that you dont use. Distractions, sober literature, this forum, exercise, whatever. I have found AA and getting a sponsor extremely helpful (necessary), but even just going to a meeting guarantees an hour where youll be sober. At least try a zoom one before using again. Lastly, take it one day at a time. Just dont use TODAY. Dont think about forever if it trips you out. Just dont drink today (every day 
Hope something in my ramble was helpful, there is SO much good advice on this forum. You CAN do it!
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I have never been refused help at the hospital when I said I needed help they either found somewhere for me to go whether outpatient or inpatient or if it was bad enough I just stayed there. I agree there is so much help out there
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I’m with you friend. Stay on here, the community is amazing. They
literally are saving my life.
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you need a plan and ressources to work on recovery, trying is not enough. great that you keep going to give up, continue and dig into qit lit, podcasts, programms and read & contribute here a lot.
check out this thread, very helpful. keep us posted here on your thread! one day at a time from minute to minute is the way. good vibes 
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Try a meeting might help helped me stay sober wish you well
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Thank you so much for your help. With my addiction there isn’t anything like that for me, but I genuinely appreciate you taking the time to write me. Blessings to you on your journey.
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This was very helpful. Thank you and Congratulations on making ut to 30 yoday. WhooooHoooo 
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I will, you too.
would you mind explaining yourself a little bit more (only if you feel comfortable).
I feel comfortable just embarrassed. My addiction has to do with food. I use it to self-harm. I suffer(ed) from every eating disorders out there. Right now it’s abusing sugar. I know some feel it’s silly to call that an addiction, but it has robbed me of a life, of ever becoming a mother or falling in love, or even in advancing in my career which I was clearly able to do. When I attend open AA meetings I hear and see me. It just sucks that I have to face my addiction every day cuz I need this vice of mine to live. I hope you or anyone else reading this doesn’t think less of my need for this community, because I need help. When I am in the tangle of any of my eating disorders it brings to very dark place with life threating thoughts (my life of course). 
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No one should think less. It’s a common issue with many people who also use drugs and/or alcohol. I, for one, know exactly how it’s driven. I started with eating disorders when I was very young. Due to an accident I had a year and a half ago, it’s shining its head up - a lot!
If you are interested in trying a sobriety group, with talk, I know that in Recovery Dharma, many are only facing issues with food, not with other addictions. I believe the have online meetings specifically for it. No doubt, there’s no bad RD meeting.
I am glad you’re here and glad you shared!
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@Skylah You are in the right place and I’ve struggled with food too. It’s okay I’m glad to be able to help however I can. You definitely qualify as an addict. Do you have insurance? My bodybuilding has been an issue before so I can understand where you’re coming from. Lots of people “put down the pipe and pick up the fork”.
Counseling, nutritionist, IOP eating disorder treatment, have you tried any of those things?
No one thinks any less. Most of us probably had to at some point deal with eating disorders as it is very common for people to binge huge amounts of sugar and food when they quit another addiction. In many ways Sugar is harder to come off of than even alcohol as it is so widely used and available. I will say checking in hear often should help. Set short doable goals and push to surpass them.
Thank you for your kind words.
Thank you. I have tried therapy throughout my life. I have tried OA since I was a kid, but it only increased my other eatingdisorders. I am trying EDA now.
Thank you. I will.