Day 1 off of pills, well actually, just a few hours. Already called the rehab center here and awaiting on a call back tomorrow. I’m not looking forward to this process but I know the end goal will be sweet. If anyone has a time machine, please let me use it for the next few days. Haha. All I know is to get high, it seems and sobriety seems so fucking boring. Having an actual urge to get up and do something when you’re not high or even feeling legitimately happy about something. Any stories will help with you have any on this topic. Thanks,
-Nathan
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Hey nathan. I am a recovering alcohol/addict. The last 9 yrs of using was opiates and benzos, daily. The physical withdrawals were bad but for me was the easiest part. The hard part was learning how to live life on life’s terms without running to a substance to ease my mental pain. I had never learned any thinking and/or coping skills with dealing with the simplest things in life. Rehab helped me immensely, then I did a 30 day outpatient program, and jumped right in to AA and did everything they suggested, and I learned how to change the way I think. It’s amazing how it works if you really want it. Does life get dull at times? Of course. Is it still hard at times? Sure. But I have hope and freedom from self loathing and shame that I never had before. I have a life worth living now instead of just existing in it. Be patient with your self and the process. …one day at a time, that’s all you’ve got to do, besides what others tell you worked for them. Try whatever it takes to stay sober, v it is so worth it. The gym idea? Dude, it will help you stay sane. I go to the gym 5-6 days a week, make myself go sometimes, helps get me out of my head plus you’ll look great! You can do this! Give it 90 days, if you choose, you can always go back to your old life. …but I’m pretty sure you won’t want to. Stay strong, stay sober, stay connected! 
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Existing instead of living is soo true