Okay so one thing I’m fighting to understand currently is why me being proud of what I’m doing is considered being self centered. I lost my children due to meth addiction… I was homeless for 2 years, I’m currently pregnant and was seen as self centered for the addiction I was in but people without a SUD don’t understand it… so I decided to buckle down and I’ve hit 100 days clean and sober, I have somewhat stable housing which I am on 3 wait lists I’m almost to the top on, I am going to get my own vehicle in a week!! I have a stable steady income which I never had in my whole life, I’m excelling in drug court which I literally got a hand written note from the directors SUPERVISOR telling me that I’m doing amazing… I go to 3 meetings a week, court every Friday, plus work 5 days a week night shift and still go to meetings and appointments and my doctor, I’m doing adult things now like building credit … renewed my license… building a beautiful relationship with my S/o after YEARS of toxicity… I now see my daughter… And fighting for all this full force with a high risk pregnancy, and I don’t sit around and brag … at all… and I’m bittled as narcissistic for talking about my accomplishments… but I’m celebrating them. because I’ve never had anything to celebrate about myself before… I sit and listen at meetings 90% of the time because I’m scared to talk about my experiences because I’ve been molded to think talking about myself is narcissistic, but in reality I am a product of narcissist abuse from everyone in my life. I was manipulated into thinking IM the one who is all about me . But in a sense, I am right now. But not in a way where I have a huge ego and everything is all about my life. I’m working on Improving myself… so it’s all that is on my mind. The light at the end of the tunnel, are my kids… I’ve put drugs over my children and that eats me alive every day I wake up… that’s why I’m being selfish, but not for me. I’m being selfish for my kids so they can have a mother they deserve and that’s bottom line …
Welcome to Talking Sober NinaRose!
That’s the bottom line lady. Huge congrats on how far you’ve come and keep going and keep improving and keep building this healthy sober clean life for yourself and for the ones you love. As you clearly know damned well you got to take care of yourself before you can take care of anyone else and you’re doing just that.
Years of narcissistic abuse followed by years of self abuse and the negative feelings that come with that won’t disappear overnight but they will get ever less just as long as you keep improving, as you are. Be proud of yourself, I am very proud of you! Thanks for sharing friend and all success on your journey. 
Welcome to the site! Congratulations on going through all you have and continuing on… you’re amazing!
It’s fine to be very proud of yourself! I’m proud of you! You’re a great inspiration for others!
Way to go on putting in the positive energy to your recovery! Congrats on 100 days! Thats a massive accomplishment. Thats hard and you should feel proud. Feeling proud of accomplishing things that youve avoided due to addiction breathes life into us addicts. Please dont feel shameful for progress.
You cant change the past. Hopefully with time you can make amends necessary. But live in the present and do the damn thing.
Proud of you 
Welcome NinaRose🤝
Congratulations on 100 days!! You sound like your taking charge of your life and getting back on track!! Awesomeness!!! You have every right to shout from the roof tops on your accomplishments!! I am so proud of you 
You are doing an amazing job getting things taken care of for yourself and your children Keep on keeping on lil lady 
