I ran into an old cocaine dealer of mine (gave that up for good 8 years ago) and she asked me if I 'needed anything '. That door is closed for me. But it did remind me of all the time and money wasted on drugs and alcohol. It made me really anxious 
and craving to get drunk or at least buzzed. But I sank a large glass of water 
and meditated and I feel better now. I will have a nice bath and go to bed early, but if that’s what I have to do to stay sober well off to bed I go. Thanking the Lord for another SOBER day.
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Well done, Alice!
The anxiety makes sense, as does the desire to avoid it by our habitual numbing behaviours of the past. Good thing we know that leads nowhere - or nowhere good. Instead you will wake up refreshed, with your recovery intact, and ready for the new day!
I am proud of you. I hope you are proud too. 
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You showed a lot of poise and made the right choice. Good for you!
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You made a great choice today 
. You cannot undo the past, but you can not waste another penny on poison.
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That’s a huge win, friend. Really.
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Thanks everyone. I was so proud of myself this morning. Woke up with a fresh mindset and had a productive day. Craved a little around 3pm, but didn’t cave. Today, I found my one year chip from 2015 and it gave me a bunch of motivation. I was clean and sober from 2014 to 2021 when my father passed away. This period of sobriety started at my mom’s passing, and now, I want to honor my deceased parents by living an addiction free lifestyle.
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I’m really happy for you