For a couple of weeks now, I’ve been meaning to clean out my closet and organize my room. It kinda broke my heart to find so many empty bottles of alcohol. I don’t even remember hiding the empty bottles. I don’t know how I’m feeling right now… I’m a bit ashamed, a bit disappointed that I needed to hide, and mad at myself for being so drunk that I didn’t remember about those empty bottles. I’m sober 34 days and I should be happy, but finding all these bottles kinda broke my heart. I don’t even know why 
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I have a very similar story except mine caused my wife to be totally embarrassed because of my behavior. So I bought a new mattress set and box spring about 3 months ago. I paid to have it delivered and the old set taken away. The men showed up and while lifting my old set up empty pint bottles came spilling out onto the carpet that I had drunkenly stashed in between the mattress and the old box spring… Needless to say my wife was aghast and luckily the men played it off and said nothing, just went about there business. I had no recollection of stashing those bottles in my bed… I was so embarrassed and more so for my poor wife. The things we do when we are sick…
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I would stash bottles around my room as well. Liquor and beer bottles. I found 37 empty glass if light bottles under my bed when I moved my room around in my last apartment. I was already over a month sober at this point and couldn’t even believe I was ever at a point where I would binge drink alone in bed in my pajamas and roll the bottles under when I was done. Who was I trying to fool, I was a mess. At least now we can see how far we have come. Also, at least you’ll probably never see those guys again. We just gotta swallow the embarrassment 
what sucks even more is that the embarrassment isn’t the worst part about getting sober but it’s so worth it
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I have totally done the same thing.When I first joined on here I woke up from a really long night of drinking not remembering that I finished a 6 pack.That doesnt seem like alot but I already had 2 tall ciders and an ipa and another 6 pack on top of that.I woke up trying to hide the beer from my husband who HAD to have noticed but didnt ever say anything and found cans in my drawers, my dogs bed, I mean everywhere. I went down stairs to hide the beers cause I couldnt remember drinking them and they werent where I thought and panic set in.I cleaned everything up when I found it but I too was so embarassed and ashamed thats what made me want to get sober.
That isnt even the worst thing Ive ever done drunk, but maybe one of the most embarassing…maybe…I obviously wouldnt know cause Ive been blacked out alot.
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My last relapse I actually bought a bottle of wine, drank it in my hot chocolate which tasted like shit, but I drank the whole thing, felt guilty so didnt finish the wine til the next day. I finished it though!Then in my tipsy stooper I went to buy two more bottles. Woke up so fricken hungover. Remembering this is everything I hate about drinking.Its never worth it.I stashed all 3 bottles around the house til I shamefully threw them away and I never want to do that ever again. I just want to stay sober and never have to hide anything.
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