Hello . I’m back…
Tomorrow will be three weeks. I have been so so angry over the past couple of weeks. Like I cannot control my emotions. I can’t pin it to anything specific…I did have a particularly intense acupuncture session a couple weeks ago and my emotions have just exploded ever since. I think the acupuncturist may have also done a bit of nerve damage to my foot, which hurts at times. Clogged energy?!? I am angry everyday, at everything…my partner, my work, myself. The past, the future.
It’s starting to impact multiple aspects of my life. I just can’t seem to control it. And, if I’m being really honest, I find myself being jealous of other people’s happiness. I struggle to be happy for them. I am happier when things are going wrong for them. Which I know is so awful and evil, which makes me even more angry at myself. I don’t know why I’m so bitter and resentful. But I want to be truthful. And this is how things are at the moment.
I’m also anaemic and since finding out I now notice how tired I am all the time. Everything feels like a struggle. Like I have enough energy to just about complete my working day, then everything else is a chore. I have to push myself to do things.
Im sad and tired and angry .