These are the random notes from my notes app. I have a problem. If I’m looking at Xanax for the first time in years things are clearly bad. Very bad. I don’t want to feel this. What the hell have I become. A person who depends on a substance to fuel happiness. God damn it I’m done! I’m allergic it isn’t an option. I need my health back. I need to focus on doing the things I need to be a happy and content person in life. I need routine and I need to stick to it. I want to live a happier life and I deserve it. Help me first step? I’m thinking of doing 75 soft to get myself in a routine and keep me distracted? I want to be free.
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75 Soft sounds like a great start for wellness for you!
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I am day one into my recovery, so I am by no means an expert. I have done 75 soft more times than I can count. I never did 75 hard because the idea of never drinking again was too much at that time. I failed 75 soft over and over because I drank in excess. I can’t just a have a beer, it turns into 6 or 9. It didn’t matter if I was in a good place or low place, I would keep drinking until I blacked out. It snuck up on me, I lost control around Covid and now I am seeing health issues due to my drinking. I am accepting that 75 soft won’t work for me, my addiction has taken over. What would your 75 soft look like, do you have a good support network? What is stopping you from doing 75 hard?
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You are here trying in a way that is step one. Good job. Recovery is however you make it to be there is allot to be said about what kind of things you tell yourself and I think you can be telling yourself that you are already taking the steps to help yourself lead a life of recovery. Be kind to yourself and have a wonderful start to your recovery. You are already doing it!