After years of trying to help my husband get off meth, I took the steps to get a restraining order. He obviously broke it and I’m spending every single day feeling guilty and heartbroken. I’m struggling to not want to talk to him, not try to continue to save him. He tried to call from jail the first 4 days (even though we have a no contact order) but the last 3 days have been silent. I know I’m protecting my kids but I can’t help but love him so deeply and now I’m scared he resents me even though it’s his fault alone he’s in this situation. Any advice or encouragement is appreciated 
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I think you’re doing the right thing. I know it’s difficult and you’re questioning your choices, but protecting your kids is the priority.
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Its hard. What you are doing is no easy feat. Hang in there… look into Ala non (sp) or some type of support group or therapy. This is about you and your child.
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Sounds like you are doing the right thing
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I think u did the right thing. Its ur safety and ur kids safety that is MOST important.
I have also been in this scenerio with my absuive ex. Ultimately girl I dont think u will ever be able to save him. He needs to want to save himself. I do understand the “pull” to want to help but its a slippery slope and can be a very dangerous one. I also charged my ex. We had a very “trauma bond” type of relationship. It never ended well and i ended up having to save my own life. All i can suggest is to stay focused snd remember why you put the order in pmace to begin with. Theres very good reasons why you did. Uv shared abit about it thru ur previous posts and it doesnt sound likes hes in a good head space. He does need help but he needs to want it.
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Forget that thought. None of us could or can be rescued by someone else.
We all need to do it ourselves. And sometimes loving someone, means letting go of them if that’s what it takes to get them wanting to change.
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I feel your doing the only thing you can do in this situation, youve tried it hasnt worked and ultimately only he can save himself, think of it this way…by stepping out of the picture it means he has to get clean for himself not you or anyone else, if he does great, if he doesnt its not your responsibility, yours is yourself and your kids
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