Good morning guys so am 4 months sober and lately just feel like im plodding along and what was new now seems routine , im still struggling with a sleep pattern sometimes falling asleep after work then being awake at 2am till its breakfast then work again.
I guess its just life but without the ups and downs and drama but is it weird it seems boring at minute i suffer from depression and guess am a bit down as well just looking for advice if people have felt similar i still dont want to drink and now thought of a hangover is disgusting. Just a bit meh i guess 
Thanks for listening 
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I don’t have any real suggestions.
The only thing that came to mind for me is when I worked with clients in therapy. We don’t know what the future holds for us.
The one thing I look at is the span of our lives. My addictive behaviours impacted my life significantly when I was going through it.That span of time however if I put it in a scale of length it impacted my life, it was a rather insignificant time when compared to what I hope will be a long life.
Sorry if this is rambling it’s early and it’s been a long wait in this ER.
I may return and edit this tomorrow.
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I feel the same way. I’ve got 66 days under my belt, and my sleep pattern is wrecked. It doesn’t help that I work 12.5 hr nights shifts. I used to be able to flip flop my sleep back and forth so I could be awake in the day on my nights off but lately I can’t. I can’t say I really sleep more than a nap a couple times a day. It’s tough!! I’m sure depression has something to do with it, too, and restless legs.
I don’t have any advice to offer except maybe try magnesium at night. That helps my restless legs and makes me sleepy for awhile. Good luck! Hope your sleep straightens out soon. Maybe when spring hits!
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For sure. Life can be a toil sometimes. Daily routine can feel arduous. It happens to me often. I don’t think it means that I am doing recovery wrong. Active gratitude and mindfulness can help, I think. What little things in my work, or chores can I make a point of savouring, insignificant as they may be.
Getting your sleep sorted would help a lot too. Read up (maybe you have already) about sleep hygiene and really stick to it.
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Keep going, I hear you on “that’s life sometimes”.
Covid has messed up my sleep pattern lately and I’m still struggling to reestablish daily restful sleep.
Life can feel very straining with lack of quality sleep. Be kind to yourself and grateful for the little things, including the resting & sleep get. This helps me a lot to cope on the daily. Hope quality sleep finds you soon. Sending hugs and kindness 
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Thank you for sharing. This is the fear of mine, poor sleep and boredom.
I guess this is the reality for some and we just need to find a way through. I started back at gym yesterday so hoping that will help as I enjoy weight training and hiking (now just treadmill, too freakin cold outside), and I joined a trail association to perhaps volunteer for trail maintenance work. Hopefully things like this can help and you also find something.
Congrats on your sobriety to date and wishing you all the best
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Yeah i get this too …someone once said to me that most of life is lived on the middle ground…the day in day out routine and i think thats true…i think as addicts we got so used to the constant highs and lows that middle ground can feel strange and a bit unnerving…try to welcome it and remember just how low those lows were and how nice it is to be in this plod along time without such drama, its just an adjustment like any other but soon these quiet times will become your new normal, youre doing great things 
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Congratulations on your 4 months Chris
I totally get what you are saying. The beginning few months we try to change up the routine and once that’s in place, then we have to figure out who we are.
The winter months also mess with our sleep pattern as our bodies shut down with the early darkness and this whacked sleep can stir up depression. I liked the suggestion of taking magnesium or possibly melatonin.
I would suggest looking for a after work hobby…maybe a class to join or something you could do at home? It would give you something to look forward to and maybe boost some happiness.
Do know that this is normal and will pass. 
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Yeah thats how ive sort of done well this time i read the dopamine nation and what really stuck with me is that its like a see saw and you cant have great highs without great lows so its best to be balanced or middle of the road and with doing that i have started to enjoy the small things once again like my hikes and the gym to beautiful sunrises. And im trying to write a noval.
Its just middle of the road is exactly that ive nothing to really excite me perhaps im just being selfish again and wanting best of both worlds , thanks for replies guys 
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No i absolutely understand because i feel the same sometimes…im feeling a little flat myself this week but i know it will pass, il take this over any form of stress due to drinking, i know exactly what you mean tho…
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