PMO relapse

I could feel it coming. This week has been so stressful and emotionally draining. I’ve been alone this evening and so so broken down.

Life is hard sometimes but this relapse of my porn addiction has just served to remind me that I am a work in progress. The last 56 days have not been wasted. I just need to remember the tools I used in the first 30 days. I got complacent about my recovery and it cost me.

Day 1 for me tomorrow. I am going to pick myself back up and go again.

As to what I am going to do different? I don’t know in all honesty. Try and do less and makes sure what I am doing is my focus. I have not been truly present these last couple of weeks with all the turmoil. Its back to basics I think. Exercise, rest, self reflection and I think I’m going to make a break in case of emergency list of things I can do to break the cycle.

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Progress not perfection. Trying again is what’s most important
Have you tried any SA meetings?? I try to hit at least a couple a week via zoom. It really helps me stay the path. Just something to think about
Prayers to you!! :pray::pray:

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It’s a learning experience. For me what I found helped me break the cycle was joining a recovery group, and getting counselling from a therapist with experience counselling in sex addiction recovery. I kept spinning my wheels until I got that support from people who knew the struggle and had experience on the path.

Neal posted some links here:

Don’t give up, don’t run away

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