I started my journey today, and relapsed today. My original sobriety date was set for the 14th. Maybe I got a bit too anxious starting early. Wish I could’ve fought it, but I honestly did not feel like it. I’m going to try again for the 14th. But I like to write to work out my thoughts. Sorry to be a downer in a sea of people fighting everyday. Here is the poem I wrote:
My mind’s a little hazy
I like it though, I’m crazy
I like it in this phase see?
When everything’s amazing.
I do not mind the worries
It erases all the pain
What if sober is the crazy,
And high is what is sane?
The poem is not meant to be negative towards sobriety either. Sobriety is my mission. It’s just art, really.
I’m glad you added that bc I nearly flagged it and I don’t flag anything. I’m glad I didn’t bc your poem actually sends a message of your confusion and the insanity that our addiction can do to us. If I can help in anyway even just a chat DM me. Take care
oh god I gave up on thought process ages ago, my thoughts always ended up with a drink in my hand. Now I leave the thinking to a sponsor while I’m busy doing what he tells me, life is so much simpler when you stop fighting it and just give yourself to someone who actually knows how to stay sober and wants the same for you.
That is the ultimate goal. I started a Sobriety Journal yesterday. I even wrote about my struggles today. That’s a great idea to start incorporating my poetry into it though. Thanks for the advice!
Definitely. Support is always good to have. I never want to stop thinking for myself, but it definitely helps to have someone who wants sobriety for you, in your corner.
