I have been a porn and masturbation addict since I am 13 and now I am 24. I just relapsed and I feel like nothing is working. I am always vulnerable especially when I am by myself. Those thoughts rush in and tell me that I should look at porn. I seem to do this everytime after my family has gone to bed. Everytime I try to do something, a seemingly harmless idea pops in my head that will eventually lead me to watching pornography and masturbate. When I am done I feel so guilty. I want this misery to end. Guys please always hit me up to make sure I am ok! I want to be free and destroy this demon once and for all!!!
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Humans are made to reproduce, so the urge to mate will be the strongest, sexual energy is very diffult to keep down, it can be transformed into more positive actions, than porn and masturbation. I am in the same boat as u, and I been a porn addict for 22 years, married twice, but i don’t give up pornography, but i also don’t give up on myself , we are alot stronger than, this force that tempts us so easily.
I know exactly how you feel! the idea always seems so harmless and then it leaves you feeling guilty and worthless. I find keeping busy helps ward off those thoughts.
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What do you do to keep yourself busy? Everytime when I’m alone, the thoughts of the girls I cross path with during that day come to my mind. When that happens I start to masturbate to them. I feel like I am objectifying women and I feel very guilty. I just can’t seem to fight that urge to masturbate and look at porn when I am alone 
Honestly, I do anything I can. I read this forum and respond. I have a consulting practice, I work on that. I go for long motorcycle rides. I walk my dog. I clean the house. When all those seem to be failing, I go hang out in coffee shops where I’m not alone. I work on avoiding my triggers.
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Exactly what Ignatius said, just anything to keep yourself busy. Pick up a hobby. I’ve started learning to play guitar and I find that really eats up my bored time that would otherwise be spent masturbating… working out is another good way to stay busy.
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Yeah, working out helps, too!
Working out makes me masturbate even more, because it feels better after a work out
Really? I’m usually too beat after a workout to even think about it.
Working out, actually gives me more energy, is has the opposite affect on me, is been like this since I was 19, and my sexual energy just rises even more, but my addictive personality kinda defeats the purpose of masturbation, which sucks for me
I am struggling with PMO. Relapsed 5 times in 4 days
I know when I relapse, I tend to be like you @Nephila - several times in a period of days. Then I get my head back on straight and manage to go a while longer. What I’m trying to do is lengthen the clean periods and shorten the relapses as much as possible. I’m minutes from day 17 right now. It’s not the longest I’ve gone, but it’s getting up there.
The other things I’m doing is trying to figure out what triggers me, avoiding those triggers where possible, and figuring out alternative strategies when they’re not.
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