Porn and Masturbation Relapse

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I’ve been struggling with a porn and masturbation addiction for a while, and only in the last couple months have I tried to rid myself of it entirely. I thought the staying clean was easy, but ive only ever gotten to a 14 day streak. Since then I’ve relapsed twice in two days, and each time I hate myself more and more. I just want to be free of this stupid thing, man! I really don’t know how people can have such long streaks. I got a website blocker on my laptop, but both times I’ve relapsed I just end up going onto incognito mode, where I can’t block anything. I genuinely feel so bad about myself, and I can’t even tell anyone I know irl about it, cause i know theyd laugh or just stop talking to me althogether. It’s just so difficult when I start to get urges, and I’ll often tell myself that I’ll just watch one video or look at only one photo etc. But it ends up snowballing.

So yeah. I just wanted to get my feelings out. I am trying to find ways to get rid of incognito and guest mode altogether on my laptop, so it isn’t all bad i guess. My goal is to reach 15 days, let’s hope I can reach it.

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I feel you
I’ve had to put a child lock on my WiFi so i can’t access adult sites and im trying to reduce my masturbation
I’m 36 and still can’t stop touching myself 5 6 times a day
Since putting the child lock on the WiFi its gotten a lot better and yesterday was the first time in days ive done anything
Stay strong keep going :muscle:t2:

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Any addiction is debilitating. You’ve just got to take it one day at a time. It might even be worth maybe locking your laptop away for a few hours each day if you can to avoid temptation in terms of watching porn.

It’s a good thing you’re using the app because you know you want to get better. I would definitely recommend finding others on this app with the same addictions to find resources specifically for you - that’s what I’m doing with my alcoholism.

Keep strong! You can do it :blush:

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