As I continue along in my recovery journey I find that I am internalizing so much about life in a new way. One thing that really hit me today was just how life is - & always has been - & forever will be an instant full-spectrum picture of what I am internally aware of and believe in, and what I practice based on those formed ideas.
Looking back I can clearly see, that all the dishonoring relationships and sickening events of my life during my decade of active addiction were proof of what I felt and believed about myself and the “world”. I was heartbroken and furious and delusional - and very stubborn & protective about those precious qualities of mine. And their collective taproot, fear, consumed me. Then, my experiences naturally became a direct demonstration of that. And it was chaos.
Now that I’m actively immersed in learning what to do in order to actually honor my body and my feelings, I can see how life is changing. It’s more stable, I find myself relaxing more & more is possible. Relationships with others are sweetening, and I’m getting a better handle on boundaries. Instead of feeling overwhelming desperation I’m discovering curiosity. It’s humbling, lovely and meaningful to experience the unfolding lesson of what being kind really means. 
It’s true, the more I’m kind to myself, the more my world is kind to me.
What positive realizations have you had along your sober and recovery journey? 
Yes much more vivid and present! Like it feels more like what real life is supposed to feel like 
