Life hard graft atm trying to find my way home from a binge and fighting my addiction for past year, got clean felt good lost my way and I’ve been fighting ever sense, Ontop of the 18 years of herion use before I got clean. I stopped BC my body had an almighty panic attack I was rushed to be put on heart monitors BC I believed I was dieing or having a heart attack but in reality it was my body telling me it had had enough, I’m now in a state of aniexty all the time and it’s crippling me mentally physically and emotionally, just trying to reach out and see how others have dealt with this and does it go away, 
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Feeling for you Em. Take care sister. You are a good person and you deserve a safe, sober life. Keep fighting for it 
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Emma, I am so glad you are back.
The anxiety is brutal, I remember opening my eyes in the morning and it taking over my body. Even thinking about facing my days was so hard, sitting with that all day felt nearly impossible but you can do it. I actually had to take CBD (no THC) I took the theraputic dose they use for schizophrenics because I thought I was going to lose my fucking mind. It took the edge off. It was expensive but it wasn’t dope and I didn’t have to take it for very long. The anxiety eventually went away and I was free, hang on tight, reach out anytime.
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Thanks everyone everyday seems like a fight for my life atm I’m constantly in flight or fight mood and I will fight my way thru it but its taken everything I got to do this, I’m going to try my hardest to become part of the forum again BC I know it helps and that hopefully in return I can help someone.
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You have helped me so much today I too beleive I have heart issue but it comes and goes I didn’t realize there was a name for it I feel so much less alone I know u get it that you all get it. Xi need to get bk to my homegroup
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Your never know how much your words and sain thinking has helped me today, we get so caught up in the aniexty I can’t see past my nose on the end of my face, I took my kids out for a evening walk that has helped tremendously and your words have really helped me. So Thankyou so much for that. 
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I’ve kicked. It gets better.
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I’m so happy to see you back here Emm. I’ve been worried about you. Please don’t ever give up and keep coming back. Much love to you.
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You too sweet Lisa. Xx always great to hear from ppl that really do care. X and want to see you well.
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How did magnesium help may I ask sweet. Xx
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It’s like a white liquid I beleive I do rocket, celery and a banana with soy milk once a day but il definitely give it ago I’ve heard others talk about it to mines more like tightness and I have this habbit of holding my breath I don’t realize I’m doing it, I beleive it’s BC I smoked herion for do long the holding of breath became a habbit to sounds fucking crazy when I write it down. X thanks sweet
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I agree magnesium is amazing I still take it nightly, it is actually a muscle relaxant and Dr’s have told me to take it for my restless leg. There are many different types of magnesium so you need to make sure you get the right one. The one you need is magnesium bisglycinate. If you end up taking it, I was told to start with the lowest dose because it will also loosen your bowel muscles and make you poop which can be helpful if you are constipated, but not helpful if you are not! Ease your way up and now I take 600 mg nightly, which also helps me sleep like a baby. Dan is right most of us are magnesium deficient, and especially us who have been abusing ourselves for so long.
I actually used to give my daughter a magnesium drink for her anxiety ( forgot about that) I am not sure which magnesium it had in it though, maybe if you could go to a health food store they would be able to help you out with the proper ones.
Hope you have a decent day today, and your anxiety isn’t too bad love. Big hugs from Canada!!!
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Thanks il definitely have a look this week, it’s always there some days worse that others but I’m rolling with the punches atm thanks for letting me know which one. Xx
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God my aniexty today is hurredous it feels like I’m being attacked by my own body, god give me strength. X sweating shaking, nervous, overwhelmed are just a few of my systoms I’m at work but all I want to do is go and hide but I knoe that won’t help me.
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This happened to me the last three times I relapsed. I thought I was dying. Turned out to be panic attacks… It still felt like I was dying. Scary stuff…
But, when I got clean seriously and stuck to it, the panic attacks didnt happen again and ive not been hospitalized since.
My point is, don’t use again. It will save your life. It saved mine… I’m only 63 days clean, but I’m healthy and I’m happy.
If I can do it, you can to. You just have to want a better life bad enough and work everyday toward it 
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Me as well 
but were still standing right 
and standing we will remain
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Thanks yeah I’m sticking with it I can’t keep putting myself through this it’s near on unbearable but, I’m taken each hour as it comes right now.
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Thanks that’s my plan, I’m off to a meeting tonight that always helps. BC I’m getting outta my own head which is something I so need to do, I finished work and I had to lie on sofa and fall asleep BC being in flight or fight mode is wearing me out so much atm, but I keep reading post and making descions that will only help me.
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The most beautiful thing I have learned through recovery Emma is impermenance. When we are in active addiction we are stuck and nothing changes. But as we heal nothing stays the same, things are always changing including how we feel. This will change too, you have to have faith. Where there is faith there is no fear and if you take fear away it will lessen your anxiety a little. Have faith that this is going to pass and just try to melt away into it, as uncomfortable as it is. I know it probably sounds like I am full of shit because I am not feeling what you are feeling right now, but I have been there love. It will go away and as long as you don’t pick up you don’t have to feel like this again… once it’s gone it will be gone for good.
Wish I was closer to hang out and try to help keep your mind still. Sending you a huge hug from across the world.
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Thankyou i know it will pass I feel better after coming home and resting, I’m so tired all the time right now so I rest when I nerd to and when I can, I’m contemplating hitting a meeting but in all honesty all I want to do is rest atm. I’m day 3 so I know what it takes as unfortunately this is far from my first rodeo but never experienced aniexty like this ever before I beleive it’s BC I was taken alot of benzos and pregabs at the end BC the herion was shit and most probably just full of benzos anyhow as I’m in UK. Those pills really fuck up ya phyce.
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