Pot was the beginning of the end of my teenhood

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I started smoking weed when I was 13. The first time I got high was the end. I was acting different then the others I smoked with.

Maybe I was depressed because I had never felt so good

I was steeling it
Ripping people off
And totally in a rage for it

My anger was so bad it wound me up on probation a few times no counting the times the cops searched and found it on me
My anger was so bad I’d completely wigg if I couldn’t get 10$ that I thought no1 knew what was for. It was so obvious. If I heard no money for me, I don’t know how but I’d rage all day. Honestly , I don’t know how my parents took so much anger or bailed me out of jail and I would lnt bail myself out if I was the adult in the situation.

Even when I was tested for it while I was on probation I still smoked it.
I remember once I drank so much water early in the morning to pass a test because I smoked it the night be4. Really I’m lucky I didn’t drownd my cells. I would drunk a gallon of water in 20min then keep drinking water to keep my urin diluted. I’m pretty sure that’s pretty dangerous to drink that much water so fast
Then while I waited for court to end for my drug test I had to pee. Every 10min I had to pee and i had to wait for court to end.

The whole experience really sucked actually.
I can’t think of 1 time I had normal fun from age 13 on. I didn’t. My life was weed or lieing to get it or anger I can’t get it. I was a p.o.s. Kid and I’m happy that phase is over

My wife has real medical reasons why she smokes weed
She doesn’t drink or do drugs
I can’t even tell when she smoking
Me, I’d instantly start to abuse it and everyone at my home would no. I just can’t handle it. Also I just don’t lie to people. I feel awful when I do. And my eyes ALWAYS give it away.

I know that 1 puff and I’m so high I’m done

She also knows my history with it so she be agrees to never lat me smoke it
Also I feel strong for telling myself no when I need to

Today I have 60 days no weed , alcohol or drugs which I have done all three at one time in my past. Weed was a gateway for me. MARYJANE has always backstabbed me and I’ve learned this

Experience is in me
Thanks for reading

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Proud of you and your 60 days! Good job @Noshame

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Congratulations!!!

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Amazing work on your 60 days and I related so much to your post only swapping alcohol for weed. I was also 13 when it lit me up and it robbed me of the following 20 years. You’re doing fantastically, keep coming back :pray:

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Congratulations, that is fantastic! That was a hard one for me to give up too, I started smoking in 5th grade. My life has improved greatly without it! You’re not alone and you are doing wonderful things.

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Wow that is awesome!

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Awesome. I feel you dude 100%. Weed was glorified in our generation. I literally smoked so hard and long Im pretty sure I have myself a pulmonary hemorrhage. I taste blood a lot and I was hospitalized for a week bc I couldn’t breathe and even iv steroids weren’t helping. The docs say I just spontaneously got asthma at 22… Bullshit. They never wanna listen. This started happening DIRECTLY after I took a messed up dab. It really isn’t harmless in any way. ALSO people who smoke weed are way more likely to have premature heart attack. And IM WILLING TO BET it’s bc of the air bubbles around the heart chronically smoking weed causes. The constant coughing causes it. They did tell me I had air bubbles around my heart back then too.

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Aah I’m sorry to hear all that

I hope you feel better now

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