So my girlfriend believes I have been sober from cocaine since Nov last year and I had relapsed last month Ona weekend. I still feel fear to tell her bc she is sober and speaking to her friends she said that would be a red flag. I was weak… And I didn’t it behind her back. I know I must tell her. When ppl say timing is right it never happenes. I know I will. I just don’t want to lose her. She only worried bc she herself if weak and I would never throw her I into it. I wouldn’t have done it around her… It’s just on my mind and I’m starting again I’m 90days. Downloaded the app again bc I NEED these reminders. I NEED these journal questions and of course this lovely community. Thank you everyone 
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Congratulations on all your sober time, even in spite of your slip you’re smashing it.
I can only speak from my experience, but the thing my wife valued most was absolute honestly after so long of trying to hide my drinking.
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Welcome back 
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I would tell her. But also be very careful to tell her how crap it was how bad it was how bad the guilt is and how to never go there.
We all know how the alcoholic brain works and put yourself in her shoes. If you don’t remind her how crap it was and the regrets and how it’s not worth it, her own alcoholic brain could use it as a reason for her own relapse, and that would suck.
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Do you work any program or have a sponsor? My sponsor and I worked the 12 steps together and it brought me SO much freedom and honesty into my life. I run all of these scenarios by her and it’s SO helpful so that i don’t cause more damage to others or to myself. It also keeps me sober. Wish you well love.
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