Quote to think about 🤍

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“Peace can feel like boredom to someone that has lived a life of chaos.”

This quote has been swimming in my mind for a few days now. And it’s so true. Referring to filling up the times that I’d personally drink. I would had drank tonight (days ago actually) and of course it’s been tough. My bunny keeps me going though. I have bad insomnia but she’s right next to me always. I need to get up in the morning to feed her and soon today I need to get her more veggies …She’s my purpose. She has saved me and continues to do so. This weight gain and not having a job and having ADHD and physical situations wich I’m sure is from the drinking for so long, this chaotic environment…it gets to me…
I’ll be 30 days sober this Monday and sadly and self-shamefully I haven’t been able to say that in a long time.
We’re all on our own path with our own story but in a way it’s also the same story. We’re all chapters in this book called ALCOHOL. We need to give ourselves that good ending. I believe we can all do it. We have it in us. That’s why we keep trying Everytime. I get upset at this but It also helps me remember that I didn’t choose this. For what ever reason it’s in my brain. There’s proof in others we can recover and live that life we want. We’re still here. We have a chance.
Happy sober weekend to all :metal::metal::white_heart::black_heart::rabbit2:

P.S
I’ve personally isolated myself a lot . And I don’t have family. I don’t celebrate holidays (Sometimes Halloween since I Iove spookyness and if I had a partner and it matters to them) and it’s not because of that at all. A lot of my fellow vegans and animal rights activist or Goth Xmas -do festivities and I have been invited but Im not going. It’s just best for me right now. I just dont apply those occasions to my life. Doesn’t feel genuine (long story for another time lol) But if you do. Enjoy , happy festivities :metal:
Just saying please try not to feel down if you do nothing for the end of year . BA-HUMBUG lol
Come here and talk if anything. We’re all here for each other wanting the same outcome …

Ok ADHD brain stop rambling , ha
Here’s my beebs Jackie :black_heart::rabbit2::white_heart::metal:

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I don’t have anything to say or add… Only agree.

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Heck yes to 30 days and hello to sweet little bun Jackie!!!
30 days is huge, it is absolutely nothing to feel shame about. You are literally changing your life. This is brave.

I’m counting down until holiday time is over but I will put up a tree this weekend mostly because I like twinkly lights. Some years I see people and some years I don’t. This year I will.

I love that boredom quote and I’ll answer it with a (maybe) Dorothy Parker boredom quote. “The cure for boredom is curiosity and there is no cure for curiosity”. I also like “boring people get bored”.

I know you aren’t expecting santa this year but if he did stop by I would hope he would bring Jackie some alfalfa.

Congrats on 30. That. Is. HUGE!!! :bouquet::ear_of_rice:

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I’ve never heard that and I wish I had come across it earlier in my sobriety, love it.

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