Hey Kelly. Merry Christmas to you. It sounds like you created a very nice memory for your family. They are lucky to have you.
If I was you I would try and look at why I’m feeling detached and sad and find out what I would need to feel better. Is it some alone/self care time? Do I miss human connection? Am I romanticising drinking so some extent? Why?
Find out what the sadness and the guilt are trying to tell you. That darkness is part of life and if you can accept it and learn from it, if you can find that flexibility, it will not break you or your sobriety.
Mental health memes and discussion (Part 2)
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