I finally completed my step 1 work today and for the first time I was brutally honest with myself. I feel so ashamed of who I’ve become. After many years of going in and out of AA I realized today just how fucked up I truly am. The sanity of my mind beyond schizophrenia. Like it’s just crazy and at the moment I’m sad because my life has been a lie and also I’m afraid because of what is to come while I continue working the steps. I know that this is where I belong but man is it scary knowing just at how unmanageable my life is.
Well done Ness.
It’s great to see progress.
Remember to try not to think about the future and stay in the present, one day at a time.
Keep doing the next right thing and everything will follow.
Again, well done.
Thank you I really appreciate it! I definitely need to think about the present. I’m afraid of the future but I’m also dwelling on my past.
I felt the same way in my early days. I couldn’t believe I let my life get so out of control. I almost lost my home and my job. It was brutal trying to clean up the mess I made while going thru withdrawals. I still have trouble letting go of the past but AA and the steps is making it easier. Hang in there Ness and keep your focus. Sending you big hugs.
it gets better. Youll look back and reflect. One life…live it!!!
I made poor decisions drunk. As you continue to make sober ones your problems will simplify.