I’m new to this community but I quit PMO only 3 days ago. I have had attempts in the past but could only ever manage around 30 days before relapse. I started at a young age and its something thats always been with me. As I have a fantasy that can’t be performed in real life (not technologically possible), PMO became an outreach for my creativity and offered a kind of fulfilment for me. However it took more from me by eating away at my life. Exams, study, friends, jobs, time with family, interests, opportunities. I would spend hours wrapped in fantasy, those hours turned into years, years became decades, all the while the world passed me by. I even had a fiance once, a fantastic, smart, and kind woman. She wanted so much to connect with me and I always made up excuses of why I couldn’t be intimate with her, I know that she felt so unloved and untouched by me even though she had a massive heart and capacity for love. How she never cheated on me or left sooner I just dont know. I’ve tried in the past to compromise with the addiction but I have come to the realisation that there can be no co-existence. I can continue with the way things have always been or I can stop entirely and try to regain my life through pain and gritted teeth. I can’t have both.
Im curious as to what everyones reasons are for taking control of their addictions (Congrats by the way, you’re all superstars!).
