Today marks 104 days that I quit using m3th. I used for almost 2 years. I continued to go around my family and hang out with some friends. Of course, not as often as prior. But, it was enough to keep suspicions quiet. I didn’t show any of the obvious signs of isolation, stealing from family, losing weight. Actually, I gained 80 pounds after my addiction began. So, hiding it was only difficult due to demeanor. You can’t always hide that “tweaking” demeanor. Well, my family and friends still don’t know. Obviously there were “friends” I used with. But you know how that goes once you get clean. I’m seeking groups and meetings at this point to continue my growth and quiet down my triggers the healthiest way I can. I’d love to connect with other recovering warriors.
Welcome Shelby and congrats on 104 days!
I was addicted to opioids, cocaine and alcohol. My siblings had no clue until I started my recovery journey. They were shocked because there were no signs but very supportive. For me, I had to get honest with myself and others to have a fighting chance at being clean.
Admitting it to my family sounds like such a scary thought. I’ve had thoughts of telling my mom years down the road (not the best idea, I know) You make a great point though. Although I did not harm my family in any way, I still lied to them. And for that, they deserve an apology. - Making amends.
You’ll know in time if you should or shouldn’t tell them. Just keep doing what you’re doing for your recovery and everything else will fall into place. Really proud of you for coming here and being open with us. We get it, normal people don’t.
Good for you! I walked away from this specific substance in 2018. It was really hard. Especially when no one (or not many people) knew you were struggling with it in the first place. Forums like this are really nice. You get a chance to find support without feeling any shame or sevrecy. I dont know you but I’m proud of you!!! Welcome!
Remember… if youre still here and youre actively clean…youre not struggling with addiction, additction is struggling with you
I love that line. I’m still here, still fighting, and i won’t give up!
Congrats on 104 days !! 
Recovery warriors unite 
Secrets keep us sick.
One of the things i love about sobriety is living a completely authentic life. Proud of you for coming here and glad to have you with us, big warm welcome from me, sending love
I agree with this statement, however before I opened up to those around me, I opened up to people who were safe. Group meetings, my doctor, my therapist. All people who were unbias third parties who would only be there to support me unjudgingly.
After some time I opened up to my sister and brother, my dad found out the hard way… Once one of my lies caused a huge rift in my marriage. My dad and my wife were the best of friends.
Holding it in myself allowed the darkness to still fester deep down inside me, making it more difficult to get sober.
Welcome to the TS community, @Srae whatever your journey to recovery looks like, I wish you the best and I am hopeful that this community helps you grow and flourish!
I know an addict whose family were shocked to find out and had no idea. When he admitted to them they didn’t believe him which is rare given that even though we are deceptive in our addictions.
All I would say is if you do decide to admit to your family that you have addiction issues, don’t be swayed into believing you aren’t an addict and don’t have a problem because this person is lucky to be alive.